Undercover

15

Y/n woke up in a hospital bed. Her whole body felt like it was thrown around a room several times, she had many blue spots spread all over her legs and chest. Her head was spinning around like a carousel with uncontrollable remotes and her vision was blurry like fog that filled the room in a flash. Her hand wanted to travel up to her eyes so she could rub her vision clear again, but something stopped her from doing so. Blinking a few times she noticed handcuffs on each wrist connecting her to the bed she was in. The beeping sound the monitor made every two seconds flooded into her ears but left her mind empty.

She tried so hard to get out of it, but something in her head told her not to. And in exact that second, Olivia, amanda, nick, fin and Dominick came in.

"You're up." Amanda mumbled and positioned a glass of coffee infront of her, y/n couldn't drink it, since both of her hands were occupied, but amanda had a straw in her other hand, to make it possible for her.
"I made it the way you like it."

"Thank you." Y/n whispered back. Her head was still pounding, she had to give everything to Form words.

They all had regret written all over their faces as they took a look at y/n's bruises, but still had the opinion that they've done the right thing.

"Y/n could you please explain everything to us now?"

Y/n still hasn't got any allowance from Wellis to expose her operation so she kept quite about that.
"It's so good to see you guys again." She whispered instead.

"Oh y/n." Olivia said almost desperately. "We could've helped you."

"You are expecting life sentence y/n, death penalty even."

"Wait- no wait, it is not the way you guys think it is." Her voice was dry and raspy.

"Then tell us!" Nick had no patience in her anymore.

"She can't." Someone else spoke from behind the team. Jason entered the room a few seconds ago and heard the voices of everyone else. His feet led him to the bed y/n was on and pulled out a key to unlock her handcuffs.

"What are you doing?" Carisi asked confused.

"I think we should talk about it in your office, Lieutenant. Y/n come on."

Y/n pulled that one cable out of her arm and pushed the blanket off of her. She still was a little affected
by the injection they gave her, but it was wearing off more and more every minute. There she finally noticed the two giant plasters on her thigh and her waist. The team realized that now too.

"You're taking her with you?" Fin questioned, being  confused too.

"Of course I am taking detective y/l/n with me."

Now the crew was completely confused. She wasn't a detective anymore, was she? She officially died almost five years ago, did she? All those questions that stormed through each head of each detective as they watched him taking y/n's arm over his shoulder and helping her out.

Y/n and wellis drove together with Amanda on the backseat, since they all wanted to make sure that wellis and y/n had no other plans.

"You're free now." Jason smiled at y/n which she replied. That just showed her that Jason and his team arrested everyone on the precinct, that had contact to the cartel y/n was undercover in.

"What do you mean with she's free now?" Amanda quizzed from the back seat, but got no response.
They just kept driving in silence.

When they entered the precinct together again, all eyes were immediately on y/n, a few had to take a second look to realize who she was and the whispers and gossiping started. Y/n and the team just ignored it and quickly walked into olivias office. They all stood there with an open mouth as they saw Donald cragen sitting on the couch too. Y/n and Jason sat down on the couch with him and the rest sat on the chairs or leaned on the table to face the three of them.
Jason stood up one more time to shut the blinds from noisy deputies, and started the conversation.

"I know that my and detective y/l/ns actions confused you all for a long time, but this all has an end today."

Cragen continued, "you all are right, there never was a Sasha bellour and there never were real threats that you've gotten-"

"You knew about this all the whole time?" Benson interrupted.

"Yes Liv, but this was all for a reason." Now the team finally seriously thought about everything that happened and connected all the missing puzzle pieces for the whole picture.

"As we found out about the cartel that Luis Garza was leading," Jason showed them a picture of the deceased man "we quickly took steps against them but they were always one ahead of us. Everytime we got two steps closer, they pushed us down the stairs again."

"It made them realize that they must've had one in their own circles, even in this department, so they decided to send someone in." Y/n continued before she gave the word back to Jason.

"We had three detectives in before, they all failed the mission and we had to take them out. I contacted captain cragen and he offered me one of his detectives, detective y/n y/l/n."

"So you were.... Undercover?" Olivia realized.

"The whole time."

"But why didn't you tell us?" Amanda said, almost heartbroken.

"Because the internal affairs bureau told her not to. We have arrested many detectives, deputies and officers, lawyers and even judges that had connections with them. We feared that they could expose y/n's real identity if they'd find out that you're working with us. We apologize for the actions we had to take to make you stop investigating, but you didn't and threatened our whole operation with your work."

They all took a sharp breath in and breathed it out loudly. They were all clearly thinking about what they could've ruined.

"We managed to free all the kids that they had in custody and arrested everyone who survived. We confiscated their drugs and weapons and successfully ended the operation." Jason confirmed.
Y/n gave him a little side eye, she knew that some of them were able to flea.

The team finally understood. Y/n never had the intention to hurt any of them and the main thing they were happy about what's to have their friend back.

"So again, we apologize that we had to keep her away from you and I apologize for my behavior and the inconveniences. You have my number, feel free to contact me."

"Wait, detective." Fin called after him, "what will happen to y/n now?"

"Why don't you ask her." He gave him a gentle smile and left the troom. Immediately, all eyes fell on her.

"Well," y/n felt uncompfortable with the built up tension "I will move back into my apartment and first off take a month or two off until I know if I am allowed to return to work again."

"What do you mean?"

"I have broken several rules, laws also."

„Such as..?" carisi curiously asked.

„They're not important Uhm..... detective carisi right? Haven't introduced ourselves properly by now. I apologize for shooting you." y/n stepped foreward and was ready to shake his hand.

Dominick hesitated at first, but gave in eventually, „nice to meet you. I apologize too." he sent her a small laugh and pointed at the wound that he made her.

„Alright y/n, you look really exhausted, I think you should go home and rest for today. We can all go out and eat tomorrow, and also invite Barba." Cragen offered, waved them goodbye and left the office with Jason. Y/n and the Rest still stood there completely struck with new information.

„Guys, again, I am really sorry and I hope I can explain everything better to you tomorrow."

No one said a word. Y/n knew that it could take years to regain their trust.