I didn't really enjoy the next day or so. I lay in bed listening to music, eating and crying. I watched a little TV but my main entertainment was internally bashing myself for coming all the way to England for this.
I barely showered and dressed. I was in a state of deep sadness and I couldn't think clearly. I just didn't have the motivation to do anything.
Jamison texted and called constantly. I didn't answer any of it. I just stared at my phone screen.
Of course I texted Seth. He was the only person who didn't think I was chasing a fantasy.
I don't know what I was thinking. This was a horrible idea. I'm just glad I had extra money to get out of Jameson's flat. I couldn't be there another minute.
Diva, just come home. You can work on getting over him here. Tinkerbell misses you and so do I.
I might. The idea has crossed my mind.
He's clearly not ready to change his life and stop drinking. You can do a million times better.
I know. I just want this to work so bad.
*sobbing* he's been texting me and I don't even know what to think. I don't know what to do.
I had to stop texting because I was crying so hard.
You gotta talk to him sometime, whether you two get through this or not. What are you going to say?
I have no idea. He knows I love him but we all know love can't save someone. He's got to go to rehab if he wants this to work.
That's a good start.
Thanks. I gotta start somewhere. Going to bed.
I did not fall asleep instantly like I had hoped. I even ate a chicken chimichanga from a restaurant not far from the hotel and that didn't help.
I lay in bed, listening to "Back to You" by Selena Gomez on repeat.
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Flight Into The Unknown
ChickLitWilla and Jameson met years ago but were separated by time and distance. Willa is stuck thousands of miles away while Jameson self destructs by drinking, fighting and other things. after some time she decides that she's had enough and flies to his h...
