ok quick update: school is starting in a few hours.. so life sucks
also i found out that corona has given me the rest i needed last year (was literally about to crumble down) but has also significantly caused my anxiety to worsen since i've been around people less and less
i haven't slept more than two hours the past two nights because somehow i feel so so so anxious about school starting that nothing is helping
i've been talking to my therapist about this but since another therapist fell ill or sum (i don't have the details) she has to do lots of extra work now and i don't want to burden her too much
also found out i might be an age regressor .. whoops (around 7/8 which is why it hasn't really come to my attention before)
i'm just so scared that one day my anxiety will get so bad that it'll escalate into agrophobia
my binge eating has significantly increased since last year .. i gained almost 30kg which is why i hate myself rn because before corona i was actually getting better at handeling the disorder and was trying to get to a healthy weight but that effort has just gone WOOSH
you know fuck life rn because nothing is going right and i'm really trying not to cry because yeah first day of school in a few hours and crying makes me so freaking tired and me and my fucking sleep deprived brain do NOT need that rn
anyways, gtg chug a few cans of monster have a nice day y'all
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I needed to put my feelings somewhere
RandomAND YES, THAT'S MY UGLY STUPID FACE ON THE COVER. IDK WHY I DID THAT, I THINK I FELT A SUDDEN BOOST OF CONFIDENCE OR YEH I THINK THAT'S IT... Ok you can (obviously, duhh) read this and stuff but pls don't judge me ok? Xx Life
