Fear. The emotion of being afraid. Emotion. One's state of mind.
Have you ever thought of what these words mean to you? Fear, the pit in your stomach that makes you want to runaway and hide. Emotion, the pain of life. Everyone has a fear, I have the fear of falling apart. The fear to suddenly break to the point I can't go on anymore. The fear of not wanting to go on live any longer.
The situation with Andy made me realize he had fallen apart. I didn't want that happening to me, especially once I met Alex. He was sweet.
Alex made me feel better about myself, while Andy understood me. I may have loved Andy, but I like Alex. Truth be told I was never Andy's, it was only dream crushed by the hard cold truth of reality.
Alex is the closet thing to normal I will ever have, if Andy can't let me be happy he never loved me. If he loved me he'd let me go instead of holding me back from loving soneone else.
