𝚁𝚘𝚌𝚔 𝙾𝚗𝚎𝚜𝚑𝚘𝚝𝚜/𝙸𝚖𝚊𝚐𝚒𝚗𝚎𝚜

𝗖𝗮𝗸𝗲 (𝗣𝗮𝘂𝗹 𝗦𝘁𝗮𝗻𝗹𝗲𝘆)

Your skin is warm like an oven, your kiss is sugary sweet
Your fingers feel like cotton when you put your arms around me
I feel like I'm just missing something whenever you leave
We've got all the ingredients except you loving me

Do you ever feel as if sometimes enough is not enough and you could be getting a lot more than what is expected. I'm not saying I'm ungrateful because how many people get to say they're dating a famous rockstar not, it's just I feel like our relationship isn't where it's suppose to be. Paul and I have been together for I'd say maybe 7 months which is about the estimate time he took off for their Dynasty Tour, its been sweet and all but lately he's been very affectionate if you wanna call it that but not in a way you'd think. I mean I'm young but not too young to know what he's talking about just not sure if I'm ready to move forward in that department because I'm so unexperienced yet he is. Today just might be that day or tomorrow who knows but don't all good relationships have everything needed even if it's sex, I'll ask tonight once the show is over but for now I'll enjoy the music

Some time after the show

"Carol can I ask you something ?" looking over to my sister

"Sure whatever you like" she shrugs, she's always been pretty understanding and never judged me so I can count on her to be honest

"Does sex really matter in a relationship, like does it have to be key to working things out ?"

"It shouldn't why has Paul been trying to get you to-

"No, no it's just...we've been making out more and every time it feels as if it's getting somewhere and he tries to move forward I panic and stop, he doesn't mind but inside I feel it's bugging him like he's older and vocal about it onstage and during interviews I feel like I'm not enough and he'll eventually find someone better who's willing"

"He's a pig if he does, y/n sex shouldn't be the main focus of your guys' relationship. If he's using that as a clutch to get you guys to move forward and you're not ready than he isn't the guy you should want to be with. If he really likes you and cares he'll wait no matter how long it takes, if not than maybe you need to look elsewhere for a better guy who will"

Taking in her words I feel conflicted as the security guard let's us backstage to see Gene and Paul talking quietly until Peter notices us first

"Y/n, Carol thought I noticed you two in the crowd couldn't really tell from the back, how you two been?" he asks giving us both a friendly hug

"Peter always a pleasure seeing you where's the laughing stock Ace ?" Carol asks while I look to see Paul coming over putting his arms around me for a hug

"Everything okay you look like you're thinking hard about something ?" he whispers so they don't hear

"Yeah I'm okay....no I'm not can I talk to you over there please ?" gesturing for the corner near the dresser

Taking it I'm serious and without so much of a protest he lets me lead him and wait until I'm ready to talk

"Paul you love me right ?"

"Of course I do why, did someone tell you something or is there a reason you think I don't ?"

"Well...I feel like I don't know how to explain it but, you're older me than by a few years. Well 10 years but that's not the point, I'll be 18 soon. I just I think our age difference is getting in the way of our sex life"

"Sex life, y/n we don't really have one to worry about. Doesn't matter sex isn't really all I'm about, I'm willing to wait until you're ready"

"But you want it"