𝚁𝚘𝚌𝚔 𝙾𝚗𝚎𝚜𝚑𝚘𝚝𝚜/𝙸𝚖𝚊𝚐𝚒𝚗𝚎𝚜

𝗕𝗮𝗱 𝗮𝘁 𝗟𝗼𝘃𝗲 (𝗝𝗮𝘀𝗼𝗻 𝗡𝗲𝘄𝘀𝘁𝗲𝗱)

Nashville, Tennessee 1983

Packing my bag as quickly as possible I zip it up rushing down the stairs. Seeing Duncan asleep still I quietly make it for the front door almost tasting freedom before I hear him starting to wake up. Not wasting time I rush out the door closing it and running down the road for the bus station. Do I know where I'm going not a clue just anywhere but here, I'm finally fucking free that's all that matters. Stopping just a few feet away from my stop I try to catch my breath slowly approaching the bus I look one last time around before boarding finding a seat. As soon as we take off I stare mindlessly out the window looking at all the familiar places I would carelessly wander with someone I thought I would spend the rest of my life with but as good as it was it took a turn for worst

"I don't want to be here anymore Duncan your friends are always harassing me and you just sit along laughing thinking it's okay"

"You'll leave when I say we're leaving, you don't control things in this relationship, now be a doll and get me another beer"

"Get your own damn beer I'm going home" pushing off from the stool I get ready to leave before I'm being turned around and feeling a stinging sensation to my face

"Get your ass to that bathroom, now! Looks like we need to talk" roughly grabbing my arm pushing me towards the back of the bar I oblige only for I fear what's next if I don't do what he ask

"Look at me, don't you ever embarrass me like that again in front of our friends do you understand? Stop being a bitch and get off your high horse, you need me y/n you have nowhere else to go. No family, no friends, nobody" roughly grabbing my chin he turns my face to look directly in his eyes, seeing the fiery look in them made me more scared than I was before

Tears threatening to spill from my eyes causes him to soften up only a little, before he's making me kiss him there's passion but it's all only to make sure I stay the course of his violent actions didn't ease up after that one time it only gotten worse so I had to leave just plan it well

Closing my eyes at peace with seeing the welcome to Nashville sign pass me by I'm leaving behind this chapter of my life

Las Vegas, Nevada 1986

Staring down at Paula sleeping figure I feel the tears freely falling down my face one by one. As much as it hurt seeing her like this, she's at peace even if it did kill her. Everyone tried to help her as much as possible but she just fell in love with those thin white lines more than me. I would never make her choose seeing as I knew I wouldn't win her heart so I just stayed anyways hoping maybe she'll see the pain she was putting me and herself through but it was too late. Placing the rose on her casket with the others I kiss my hand before placing it on the casket walking away from the sight

"I love you, god I really do" Paula runs the back of her hand down the side of my face staring deeply into my eyes

"I love you too" looking into her eyes I notice they're glossy and her pupil looks huge, my smile fades as I realize she high again

Taking her hand off my face I sit up moving away from her "you're out of it again Paula"

"Not this again, y/n I got it under control okay relax" rolling her eyes she gets up to get dressed going to the bathroom slamming the door deciding to leave her be for awhile to cool off I go get dressed to go get us food

Upon returning I see the lights are still off and nothing seems to be out of place, going to put the food in the kitchen I still don't hear anything or more importantly Paula isn't bombarding me about finally bringing food back. Taking off to the room I see her laying on the floor must've fell asleep