𝚁𝚘𝚌𝚔 𝙾𝚗𝚎𝚜𝚑𝚘𝚝𝚜/𝙸𝚖𝚊𝚐𝚒𝚗𝚎𝚜

𝗜 𝗪𝗼𝗻'𝘁 𝗦𝗮𝘆 𝗜'𝗺 𝗶𝗻 𝗟𝗼𝘃𝗲 (𝗝𝗮𝘀𝗼𝗻 𝗡𝗲𝘄𝘀𝘁𝗲𝗱)

~ February 26, 1986 ~

"Yeah mom I'm fine, well quit worrying will ya ? No Cliff is okay too he's just tired from the show"

"Who's that ?" Cliff asks coming forward leaning on my shoulder being obnoxious

Mouthing to him 'mom' he snatches the phone from me

"Hiii mom, hows home ?"

"Tell her that we miss her cooking"

"Y/n says she misses your food, fatass anyways don't worry we're all okay nothing to be worried about. But now we gotta go need to head for the road again, we love you bye"

Not getting a say so he hangs up the phone wrapping an arm around my shoulder leading us away from the phone booth

"You are no longer allowed to leave my sight, I know you called her"

"I got home sick and just needed to hear her voice, sue me" laughing seeing the 3 members I've come acquainted with pushing and shoving each other

"Uh uh Kirk I won so I get your bunk, and you will be close in range so c'mon up you go"

"Cliff you're the worst one to sleep with you take all the cover and you kick like a donkey please just let me sleep on the floor or something by myself" whining as he doesn't budge

"Y/n you are the ying to my yang now up on the bunk I'm tired seriously"

"Well I'm not so I'll stay up for awhile and just talk with Kirk until he falls asleep and then I'll come"

When he decides to quit debating on this he gives in going to sleep as I head up front. It's not long before everyone is out, while I'm drifting in and out of sleep I finally succumb to the sandman's wishes and fall face first on the arm of the couch. And then everything goes black...

~ February 27, 1986 ~

"Y/n ! Wake up ! C'mon get up" feeling massive amount of pain and some bleeding from the side of my head I see Lars hovering above me looking frantic what the hell happened ? Close my eyes for this ?!

"Lars what's going on ? Why does everything hurt, why am I bleeding ?" trying to get up but when he sees I'm in pain he helps me carrying me to another spot where I see the others where an angered and frustrated James is standing

"James what's wrong ? What happened.." getting a good look at everyone I notice Cliff is the only one missing besides the bus driver, "where's Cliff ? Hey ! I'm talking to you fucks where's my brother ?!"

When no one answers I'm struggling to get out of Lars arms and when I do I'm rushing back to the bus looking everywhere before seeing a blanket underneath it and realize it's the same blanket Cliff was suppose to be sleeping under

"No...no no, oh fuck please no !" feeling my whole world shatter I crumble to the ground not being able to stand anymore and just scream. I don't care if I look like I'm crazy, my brother is gone and he's never coming back

~ audition day ~

Sitting at the table with the guys I block everyone out until this whole shit show is over. I don't see why I needed to come, what for ? None of these are ever gunna amount to my brother not in the band or in my life so I should very well be at home. But that's not gunna happen if I go home my parents are thinking of putting me in therapy to talk with someone, yeah right that's not gunna happen. Getting broken from the thoughts I realize they called the next guy in and I'm feeling a shove from James trying to get me to analyze with them

"What do you think ?" He whispers to me as the guy just keeps playing

Shrugging my shoulders he ignores my hostile attitude and turns to Lars what I assume would be asking him the same thing. The guys good I won't lie but I'm not giving him the satisfaction of knowing that, if I didn't before with any of those others I won't now he's not any different. When he's done the guys let him know he'll get a call or such before waving him off