diary
so
I'm not a slut, saying that upfront
but
man I'm
really trying so hard at this point
even wearing
not revealing...but more tight things to accentuate my figure
i talk more to him
i try so hard to be obvious but
man what if he thinks i just like him for the looks
or
i don't know
muscles? strength? i mean sure he's really hot
but man even just the thought of
holding his hand
holding him in general
telling him how lovely he is
just makes me so happy
i think alot about him
i doodle him alot when I'm in class
god i sound so creepy
i swear I'm not
i just
man i like this guy alot
I've had other guys
but he's
different
he makes happy
he's special
to me at least
even if i look stupid with what I'm trying to do
i mean I'm not like
moving my ass Infront of him or something
I'm just
i don't know i
just talk to him
I want him to look at me
and be happy
i want to see him smile
by making him happy
i just want this relationship to happen, i know it won't happen but still
i just
if it would be real
I'd never let him go
oh well
I'm gonna stop writing for now
