diary,
i
he
stood up, bugged me AAAAA
a
a
and
k
kissed my hand
his eyes looked filled with pain and feari could tell he really didn't think it'd go this way
hhhe even told me everything was perfect about me, which i replied "says you" too, throwing in a soft laugh, wanting to let him know everythings okaylooking at my hand, i started telling him how nice and lovely his hand felt, how rough it was, making me feel secure and loved, and how wonderful that little kiss was
i honestly didn't know what else to say, letting the room get quiet, seeing him go visibly nervous again
i assured him everythings okay though, wonderful evenand...i..i had to be honest
leaning forward, making the tips of our noses touch, i told him that I'd
actually never want to leave this room
i want to stay in this moment foreveri struggled to go on
moving my head even closer, our lips so close to touching that I'm surprised he didn't yetthroughout this whole time he just
kneeled there
shaken up positively by my reaction, being surprised by how close i was to him in this momentaand
i
i did it
i kissed him, resting one hand on his shoulder and cupping his face with the other, after i closed my eyes
i could hear some
clothes rustlingi could very much tell that
he was afraid, since when i opened my eyes his were wide open
not afraid of me
more afraid of
doing something wrong, probably
which he couldn't everi gently, yet firmly grasped his wrist, slowly pulling his hand towards my waist, resting it there
telling him it's going to be alright and that i wouldn't ever be mad if he did anythingi mean i could've done so many things wrong but
I'd rather try than just
never
that's why I blurted out my feelings
even if he could've just made a sick jokeand now I'm here, making the one i love feel as loved as possible, covering his face in little smooches
i wanted him to know that i just
he'll never have to be scared of me rejecting himhe's too sweet and
honestly i
could never say anything bad to that face
unless it's a joke
and a good not hurtful onei love him so much, honestly.