diary,
i am so FUCKED
he saw the sketches
and
god I'm probably gonna get in trouble
he'll think I'm weird
i mean man i forgot for a hot minute that we had to hand these in for better grades
even though I'm sure my grade can't get better, i mean an A is an A
we just ascend to ∆ or some shit when you're too good/j
no but
god I'm scared
and the fact I'm wearing THIS uniform makes it even worse
alright stay
cool
stay calm
everythings gonna be okay
all things end so if I'm gonna get in trouble it won't last forever
i mean if he saw that
i
I think pretending i don't like him at all makes me look really stupid
I'm just gonna be honest about the drawings if he mentions it next time we have class or something
I'm... I'm gonna tell him that he's
nice to draw!!! very pretty, a unique face,,,yeah,,, totally,,not creepy
sigh I'm really pathetic
i mean he probably has a girlfriend or something
or a boyfriend
a partner in general
he's so nice and respectful
maybe he's even married
sigh
i hope he isn't
that sounds mean but
to be honest i don't want him to have someone else
though it is his life
i don't have any say over it
but
goddamnit i wish i could have a chance with him
maybe just
one single
kiss
a passionate touch of our lips while we hold eachother lovingly
god I'm
so embarrassing
how are people not ashamed of sitting next to me in class
