diary,
so
h
here i am
it
really hasn't been bad
up to now
he just told me that i didn't have to try so hard to get a good grade since i do have the best i can get right now
and
well...
h
he showed me the paper
and
man i did not expect his reaction
thanking me and then telling me a story about
a guy he liked alot,,...presumably me
since I'm the only one that just actually talks to him alot, and why would he tell me
so
i..
i need a moment
the guy i thought I'd never get a chance to love
told me
he
he loves me, sure, not directly, but he still said it
just
man
i
i don't know how to handle this
i mean
dude
DUDE
MY FUCKING GOD.
HE
HE LIKES ME
THE GUY I'VE LIKED FOR A LONG TIME
WAS IN DENIAL OVER
L O V E S
ME
LIKE
AHGHFJFJ
it just
hoo boy
literal perfection decided to give me a chance
i noticed how jay started clenching his fists nervously, his lip shaking aswell, telling me it was fine if i thought he was weird but
man
i didn't think that at all
but seeing someone look to the side with the saddest look when confessing to them might be pretty scary
i
i took a deep inhale
and
i explained why i drew him, brought him lunch, tried my best all the time, doodled him, checked up on him and all the other things
i told him i
i love him alot
not just for the looks, moreso for everything about him in general
his voice
the way he words things, his support when you have trouble with an exercise
his heartwarming smile that makes me heart go fuzzy and gives me goosebumps
all of it
i told him everything
i wanted him to know that
i really
really appreciate him
though he hasn't said anything yet
he seems... confused? surprised?
did i...say something wrong?-
was it not directed to me---
oh god oh no oh shit
