Ocean Eyes

17.

I must have been dreaming, the feel of arms wrapping around me and a warm body pressing against my back, a kiss pressed to my neck.... and then his smell hit me and i realised i wasnt dreaming. I turned and came face to face with Chris who had clearly been crying.
"You're home"
"Im home baby" he gave me a teary smile and kissed me as he held me close. He looked so good, even after a long ass flight and casually dressed in his blue and white baseball shirt, his hair a mess from where he had obviously been wearing his cap.
"Scott told me what happened...."
"I'm so sorry Chris..." i cried feeling like it was my fault, rationally i knew it wasn't, but it was my body....
"Hey, this isn't your fault you hear me?" He said cutting off my internal rambling "Im sorry. Im sorry i wasn't here for you when this happened"
"Its okay, you didn't know this was gonna happen. Christ i didn't even know.... It wasn't far along could've only been 3/4 weeks at most, i had no clue i was pregnant"
"I feel like this is all my fault.... The stress of everything....."
"Hey don't, don't do that these things just happen".
"So what happens now?" He asked sadly.
"Nothing much, i'll need to call the doctor to get checked out but there shouldn't be too much more because i wasn't that far along".
"Okay. I'll call someone tomorrow and get you booked in privately"
"Thank you" i snuggled closer to him, just having him there made me feel so much better.
"I love you Y/N"
"Love you too".

As promised, Chris got me an appointment at a private hospital for the following afternoon. It was confirmed i had indeed suffered a miscarriage. Because it was so early into the pregnancy there was nothing for the doctor to do. I was just told i could expect to see some spotting and have some cramps and told to rest for the next few days.

And rest was all i was allowed to do apparently. From the moment we got home Chris and Scott were fussing over me. They wouldn't let me do a thing, even to get up to use the bathroom one of them insisted on helping me. That was until i lost it and told them i was fine and could go to the bathroom alone.

Now I was sat cuddled up on the sofa with Mason under the fluffiest blanket Chris had while we watched Toy Story. I could feel two sets of eyes constantly looking over at me and it was driving me crazy.
"Hey, why don't you guys go walk Dodger instead of staring at me?" I said turning to look at them.
"We can't leave you by yourself!" Chris said shaking his head and looking at me like i was crazy.
"Why? What exactly is gonna happen?? Im just sitting here"
"But...."
"Chris I love you but you need to chill out baby. The doctor said i just need to take it easy for a few days, not that I'm gonna drop at any second!"
"Shhh I'm trying to watch my movie" Mason gave us a dirty look before snuggling back in with me.
"Yeah shhhh, go" i shooed them away and stuck my tongue out at them.
"Fine, but you call if you need us"
I nodded and waved my phone at him showing i had it on me before turning my attention back to the movie.