Random thoughts

Part 3

I'm really sorry for not updating, but classes are intense, I have to enroll in college next year, so I have a lot to do. I hope I'll be able to, at least, write oneshot until Christmas. Until then- bye <3

For me, it's hard to talk about my feelings. I have never been able to do something like that. And even when I did, it was bad and I was caught up in all those words, thoughts, and emotions. So it's much easier to speak about it through stories and writing. 

I lost a friend. Two of them, actually. The first one (Victoria)- it's too complicated. There's a lot of stuff that happened and we've been through a lot, but we still talk. We're okay I guess. But I lost Henry just a few days ago and I can't get over it. I'm scared I'll never be able to do so. We have so many memories together and he means to me so much- he's the first guy- friend I had. And now we just... stopped hanging out. We don't talk, he doesn't even look at me. I mean, it would be okay if he didn't want to turn things around!

We were in a cafe and we were talking about our problem. There was no conclusion, but it was nice to hear what he thinks, but now he started ignoring me. He hangs out with other girls, which is fine by me, he can do whatever he wants, but it's painful to see him just walking away from our friendship.
I'm sad and maybe a little bit mad, but it's okay. If he's better off without me, then everything is okay. The important thing is that he's happy and I'll just... I'll figure everything out. I'm fine because I finally got the time to write these feelings down. 

-This is kinda pointless to you, but I'm feeling way better writing this down. And maybe someone will give me some advice or something... I have to take my shot by publishing this.-