Guardian Angel

No End For Us

Forth hugged Beam tightly while whispering soft and loving words in his ear. Beam lay facing him, pressed tightly against his chest. His body was shaking and he was still sobbing, though not as badly as before.

Forth had been feeling numb for the past thirty minutes, but he didn't stop stroking Beam's hair and back.

"P-Poom," Beam whispered hoarsely. He released his grip on Forth's waist and distanced himself a little. He looked up and his eyes met Forth. "Perhaps, this is the end for us."

Forth froze hearing Beam's words. He lifted Beam's chin with his index finger and glared at Beam. "There's no end to us but death. Do you hear that, Baby? You and I will never end. I'll even challenge the grim reaper to stay by your side."

Beam's tears flowed again. "But, he's your brother. We can't make him suffer. I...."

"Then what if he's my brother? In this case he and I are equal. We both bleed and bear the name Jamorhnoom. If I can't hurt him, what makes him able to hurt me?"

"Poom, that person and I are very different. He's a businessman who has clearly contributed a lot to the Jamorhnoom family. He's worth keeping and your brother obviously loves him very much. Whereas I just..."

"You are Beam Baramee, this nation's best university genius medical student, my lover, soon to be my partner for life because I will marry you as soon as I graduate. You are my world, my life."

"I mean, Babe, I... don't deserve to be a part of Jamorhnoom, like that guy."

Forth quickly let go of his arms and got up from his lying position, sitting on the side of the bed with his head down and shoulders down.

"You really think that, Beam?" asked Forth in an icy tone. "After what I've said so many times, can you really not trust me even a little bit?"

Beam was surprised. He got up from his lying position and hugged Forth from behind. "Poom, I'm afraid you'll lose everything if you stick with me. I...."

"Were you born with a pound of gold around your neck, Beam? Or were you born carrying a basket of diamonds?"

Beam tightened his arms and shook his head. "N-no."

"Why do you think I'm afraid of losing everything? I lost everything when you decided to stay away from me. I don't need a big name, I don't need money, I don't need any of that as long as I have you."

Beam felt Forth's back gently shake and before Beam was really sure what he was thinking, a drop of water fell onto his hand.

Forth removed Beam's hand from his stomach and stood up. He turned and kissed Beam's hair softly. "Go to sleep, Beam. I'm going to see Phi Torn and tell him that he can continue his relationship with that person because you chose to give up and let me go again."

Beam sat on the bed, stiff as a statue. Forth's words hit him like lightning. Within seconds his memory drifted to the times he had spent with Forth and the times when he was not with Forth.

Beam felt his heart suddenly ached, as he recalled his fear of seeing Forth lying in the hospital after the accident. He still feels guilty to this day.

Now, he's hurting Forth again, being cowardly and wanting to back down instead of fighting for what he has with the people he loves.

After all, why did he have to give in when his life had already suffered enough because of that person? Beam stood up quickly and ran.

Forth standing next to his motorbike with clenched fists, as his tears continued to flow. He couldn't help himself and punched the motorcycle seat, then fell to the cement floor and sobbed violently, burying his head between his knees.

He felt weak. Beam threw him away once more. All because of Phi Torn and that guy. Forth punched the cement floor. He stood up quickly and took the helmet, but his movement was stopped when something hit him from behind.

Beam hugged Forth's waist tightly. "Don't go, Babe, don't leave me," Beam whispered against Forth's back. "I love you, love you very much, Babe. Please forgive my stupidity and blasphemy. Please, Babe, forgive me?"

Forth stood straight without turning his head. He looked down and sighed. "I'm not valuable enough to you, am I, Beam? My love isn't enough to make you strong and believe in me, right?"

"No. No. No, Poom. I'm the coward. I'm the one with no confidence. Please, Babe, please, I'm sorry. Don't walk away from me. Please? I will figth for us, I will be stronger and confident, for you, for us. There's no end for us, right?"

Forth turned and hugged Beam tightly. "Don't throw me out, Baby, or you'd better just kill me all."

"No, Poom. You are my world and I will face anything that that will get in the way of our happiness."

They hug tightly. Beam kissed Forth's lips and whispered. "Let's go see Phi Torn and tell him that we're getting married soon."

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