『JenSoo Short Stories』

Feelings

A long sigh echoed into the empty practice room as Jennie slumped herself onto the ground. She was tired, too tired to practice and too preoccupied by a certain brunette to even try and do her work.

Training had never seemed this hard. She was drained by the constant deception of her delayed debut.

But if she was being honest with herself, it wasn't what messed her head the most at this moment.

She had felt stuck for a little while now. She didn't know how to process her feelings at this point.

It all had started four years ago.

She was an eight months trainee already and news of debut was starting to spread around, she was motivated and full of dreams. She was far from imagining that years later she would still be here in this dark room alone as a trainee.

Thru those hard years she had found a new motivation, Jisoo.

The first time she had crossed eyes with the girl as she was being introduced she had felt something warm.

The girls looked so out of place that she found it cute all alone. Little time passed before they felt completely at ease with each other.

She remembered how the older girl casually invited her to the public bath after a long day of practice. It felt all natural as they shared for the first time the dreams to each other without even minding the intimacy of the moment.

Since they have only became closer to each other with no boundaries. 

Maybe that was the reason for those thoughts Jennie was having for her roommate. The mere thoughts of the girl, how perfect she was, those heart shapped lips and that body she had the pleasure to scrutinize every now and then was driving her crazy. It was all in her head, it'll always be.

She screamed her frustration trying to clear her mind from all of it, she didn't to think about it.

She heard the door squeak a tiny frame passing by.

"Hey, Jendeukie," Jisoo greeted happily, "here you are. I've been looking for you."

That smile. 

Jennie simply nodded not trusting her voice right now, a little ashamed of what she had been thing about again.

"Let's go home Jen, it's 3 a.m already."

Jennie grabbed the hand in front of her to help stand up, silently grabbing her stuff as she followed the girl.

The road to the dorm was awfully quiet and Jisoo didn't know what was wrong with her teammate. She watched her silently get ready to bed.

Jennie was lying in the dark in her bed alone, when she heard a tiny voice.

"Come to my bed Jendeukie," Jisoo simply demand. 

This was their habit, only that she didn't had to ask usually. Jennie made her way the little bed and snuggled into the older girl, her heartbeat speeding up, she begged for Jisoo not to sense it from how close they were.

Jisoo took an hold of her hand and started to draw little pattern with her finger.

"What is it with you today Mandu?" Jisoo whispered against the girl's head.

Jennie closed her eyes trying to control her emotions as she muttered, "I'm just feeling low... I don't want to talk about it."

She could felt Jisoo nodding against her, "I understand, lately training as been intense on us and specially you. You're my best friend Jennie, I'm always here with you. You don't have to keep it all inside."

Jennie felt depressed by how painful it was to hear the word 'friend'. It wasn't how she was picturing herself with Jisoo, it wasn't what she wanted to be, she craved so much more. It broke her how every single time she drowned herself in those emotions.

She didn't reply anything she only tighten her hold onto the girl. Jisoo took that as a sign of comfort from the girl and hugged her back.

Jennie couldn't find the peace to fall asleep, this was the only moment she could imagine herself as she wanted in the girls arms.

Time passed by as she started to mirrors the girl's body, tracing her face with her fingers slightly cautiously to not wake the other girl up.

Those sleepovers in their bed where the moment she cherished the most when the girl was asleep and she could allowed herself to admire her without fear of how it'll be received by the older girl.

Jennie would never imagine being brave enough to dare come this close to the girl in her awake state. It was only for her to dream of.

She slowly got closer to the girl eyes never leaving the girl's lips, they were so tempting, just there for her to taste.

She brushed her lips even so slightly that she barely touched the girl. She was dying to just close the distance and have a proper taste.

But she was brought back to reality as she felt the pink flesh closing on her lips, her sense being invaded by a sweet flavor.

"It's real Jendeukie, stop dreaming..." Jisoo confessed in a whisper.

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