Supernatural Imagines

Sam Winchester//Feeling down

My heart felt heavy as I stared at myself in the mirror. Nothing about me is beautiful and makes me wonder what Sam ever saw. I'm not pretty enough, or smart enough, or skinny enough. I'm just not enough. He says I'm beautiful but my mind says something else. My head has a pretty good way of making me feel so worthless.

There are days when I feel good and pretty. But then there are days like these where all I want is to lay in bed and not move. My heart feels heavy as I sit down and try to suck in a deep breath. I'm worried that if Sam knew how I felt then he'd only worry. I just don't want to burden him with my stupid problems.

Normally when I'm feeling down like this, taking a nice warm shower helps calm me down. So that's what I did. After getting the water ready I undress and hop in where it immediately relaxes my tense muscles. It felt good and briefly distracted my mind from the sad thoughts running through my head.

After getting out and getting dressed I go into the kitchen where Sam stood making a pot of coffee. He gave me a soft smile as I sat down. "You okay?" He frowns while pouring a cup and handing it to me. I thank him and shake my head yes before taking a sip. I set the hot mug down onto the table and look up at him.

"I'm okay, why?" My eyebrow raises.

"You just seem off that's all." He says while sitting with me. He drinks his coffee and I debate on telling him or not. The worst that could happen is he thinks I'm silly for feeling this way. But deep down I know he would never think that. He loves me unconditionally and is always there when I need him. It's one of the things I love so much about him.

"Actually, I need to talk to you." I sigh. He nods, waiting for me to continue. "I guess I've just been feeling depressed. I've tried blaming it on the cold weather but it all comes down to how I feel about myself every time I look in the mirror. I guess what I'm trying to say is I don't feel good enough for you."

He took in what I said while looking at me sadly. It looked like he's trying to rack his brain for the right words to say. "Y/n," he said while putting his hands in mine and holding them reassuringly. "It hurts me when you feel this way because you're far more than how you feel. To me your more than enough, your perfect. I love you so much, some times it hurts. You make everyone around you light up and put smiles on the faces of people who are down." He went on, making me feel better.

"You're beautiful, don't ever let yourself forget that." He reminded me. It brought a smile to my face as I pulled his hand up to kiss it. Sam always has the right thing to say when I'm feeling like this. He makes me happy and I'm so grateful for him. Not a day goes by where I take him for granted.

"Thank you for that. I really needed to hear you say that. I love you too." I smile. He leaned over the table to give me a sweet kiss before pulling away.

"You should go lay down and rest, I'm gonna make your favorite meal and bring it to you in bed." He said. I thanked him before getting up and heading towards the bedroom where I laid down and rested my eyes. Truly I am blessed to have Sam Winchester in my life and as my boyfriend. Nothing makes me happier than he does. He stole my heart.