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5: Never go well

I walked to school dread filling me.

Today wasn't good, like AT ALL.

I walked into my first class late. My hair was wet, my eyes had bags and my stomach, empty.
"You okay?" Crys whispered as I got into the class.
"Crys. I have eating disorder. Again," I whispered back.
"You've been crying, yeah?" She asked
"I cry everyday," I whispered again.

The teacher glared at us.

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   "You okay there?" Pete asked me.
I looked up.
"I'm dropping out of the art show." I explained.
"WHAT?" Jay exclaimed.
"Yeah," I replied

"It's been your dream since you were 14," Daya commented.
"I have eating disorder. I need to focus on my life. You know?"
"No. I don't!" Josey snapped.
"So you're willing to give up your dream because things are not going well? Then you'll never live your dream. Because things will never go well,"

I cleaned the tears in my eyes.
Painting in LA had always been my dream. I began painting at age ten and I loved it.

Painting was me.

I wanted to paint at the competition at LA. But now I wasn't so sure.

I got up.
"There can't be a dream without you yeah?" I waved my arms in the air
"Well there's no me anymore,"

Turning, I was about to leave when I heard Candy's laughter.

Picking up a freshman's mashed potato I threw it at her.
A gasp left her mouth

"BITCH!!" I screamed pushing the cafeteria doors with force.

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"Piper," Rufus called.
"What?" I asked my voice muffled because of the tissues I was using to blow my nose.
"Come out of the bathroom," He begged.
"Go away,"
"Oh yeah? Well forgive me for caring! You are a mess giving up your lifelong dream and now you're chasing me away? You are so naive!" He yelled.

"Oh you think I don't know that?! All of you think it's easy yeah? Loosing things? I lost my place in dad's office because I almost killed his girlfriend. I lost motherly love because I had anger issues, I'm losing my dream because I have eating disorder. And you know the worst part? I lost the love of my life, to anger management and food disorder and to that bitch called candy."

This topic of my art was a never go well.

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I was on my bed, tissues everywhere on the floor, my blanket wrapped around me. My hair was the only thing slightly neat about me.

Clothes were everywhere, I was in a tank top and green shorts.

I opened my Instagram account and the very first thing I saw was a picture of I and Jay laughing together.

There were more pictures of us and a post from Joselyn.

'i miss this alot. The former bestest couple in the world'

I sniffed.

I wanted to go back.
Back to art, back to Jay, back to me.

And if I could have the courage to look at me in the mirror and decide to face my fears, I know I can do it.

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If I could do it again
I know I'll go back to you

Back to you - Selena Gomez

Sorry for the late updates!!

I'm writing this on Christmas Eve so Merry Christmas anyways!!

Love you all.