stay here

chapter 3

Its been the third month since Iu tutoring me for the next test. Today is the test day, I work so hard for this test. I hope I will pass this time. I really hate the F alphabet.

" Beomgyu "
" yes? "
" you did great today, I'm sure that you will pass this time! "
" I hope so "

arghhh!! Sh*t , my chest, its hurting. What is going on, oh my god my hands shaking and my leg is bouncing. I can't breathe. What is happening? I have to get out from this class. Omg, i can't see clearly what is truly happening?!?

It's shining, am I in heaven? Omg?! But why? Why am i here? Oh there's the door. Should i open it? Okay let me open it. Omg my eyes! it's so bright.

" Beomgyu? You're awake? "
" what? "
" oh thank God you're awake now "
" what is happening? Why am i here? "
" You're passed out for 3 hours, you're standing beside your table and you fell "

That means I'm not in heaven yet? I just passed out. Oh god it's dissapointing . But why am I passed out? aahhh yeaa, I cannot breathe and chest hurt so bad.

" I knew it "
" know what? "
" the doctor said that you suffering from depression and anxiety "

There's no way she know about that, my family would knew it too? That's not good.

" Sir Charles already informed your family about it "
arghh I hate sir Charles for that !

" You don't have to worry about your medication cost. I'll pay it for you. Full stop. "

This is bad, my sister would be mad at me because I'm lying. My mom would worry about me. I have to go home right now or something else would happen to me.

" where are you going? "
" I have to go home, my family would be mad at me "
" what? You're sick, you cannot go back home right now "
" but, my sister would be so mad at me "

Is he okay? Why would his family be mad at him? He's sick. It's not his fault. He never wish to have mental illness. What's wrong with his family. They're suspicious. Why does he feel bad and worry about that? He should've be worry about his mental state and himself right now, not about other people. I don't think he's okay, 'cause normal people would be concern about their self first not others.

" Beomgyu you can't leave, I'll ask my parents to adopt you. Don't ask me why "
" b-but "
" there's no ' but ' in my dictionary "

I don't really going to adopt him, like I must have his parents sign. So he just going to live with me about one month I guess. I already told my parents, they both are on aboard right now. They're going to Australia and they'll back next year which is six months. If I have Beomgyu in my house I wouldn't be lonely alone without my parents.

2 days passed and today is my discharge day! Well I'm so happy. Iu is here too with her driver. Urghh so rich for what? My mom already knew that I'm going to stay with Iu in this month. They also knew my mental illness from my psychiatrist. So i guess they'll treat me better. I hope so.

" welcome to my house again, but this time just treat yourself like you're in your own house, my parents aren't at home. They both are in Australia. They'll back next year "
" um, okay. Thank you Iu "
" sure, you're welcome "

It's been 5 days I'm here, but this night I feel strange. Like someone is looking at me. I heard something. The door! The door is open! But w-who? No one is awake at this time.

" it's me! Why? Scared of me? "

omg, wtf. She's chocking me! I can't breathe. She's going to kill me! Help!! iu! Can't you hear me?!?

" Beom wake up! Wake up! "

It's just a dream? But I think it's real. My neck hurts like someone just chocked me. I don't think it's a dream. What?

" Beom.. You okay? "
" yea im okay, I guess it's just a dream "
" Beom, you're not okay. You tearing up "

What? I'm tearing up? What no.. Wait i am! Omg what is happening.

" It's okay, everything is going to be okay. Don't worry to much okay? "

I hugged him tightly and patted his head. He proceed to go back to sleep right after that. I also feel strange, I saw his neck turning red. I know someone's here before I came. I didn't tell him the truth because I don't want him to have panic attack that can 'cause him pass out.

" good morning! Beom wake up! "
" ha? Why are you're dressed up? Where are you going? "
" c'mon we're going to the mall, hurry up! "
" okay sure, just give me a minute "
" okay! Ppalli "