𝐌𝐄𝐍𝐀𝐂𝐄 ⚛︎ 𝗉. 𝗉𝖺𝗋𝗄𝖾𝗋 ⚔︎ 𝗋𝖾𝖺𝖽𝖾𝗋

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The purple cavities in the sky illuminated New York as Dr. Strange tried to close them, I could tell he was struggling.

"You're gonna' forget who I am." He breathed. My smile instantly faltered. "Forget? What do you mean—What?" I knitted my brows together, but Peter's face just emulated every single painful emotion he's ever felt.

"It's okay, I'm gonna' come find you. And I'll explain everything. I'll make you remember and it will be like none of this ever happened."

"What? No! There has to be another way, Peter. I will n-not let you do this." I stammered. "There is no other way, but it'll be okay." He teared up. I grimaced in anguish, tears instantly pouring out of my tired eyes. "You promise?" I sniffled.

"Yes." He whispered. He hugged Ned, doing the handshake, and MJ, then turned to me. "I'll come find you, okay?" He reassured. "You better, otherwise I'll just remember myself." I said, my hand reaching for his face.

He looked into my eyes eagerly. "Promise me you'll come back, promise me that you'll come to me, and act as if any of this never happened, you'll come to me and tell me." I asked him one last time. He nodded. "I'm going to remember you, and when I do I'm gonna' make up for all the time we spent apart." I sobbed.

"Y/n, if I'm being completely honest...You're making this a hundred times harder than it needs to be. A part of me is saying that I should leave this universe be and put myself first for once, but...I can't." He cried, I wiped his tears off his cheek.

I shook my head and wiped my tears away. "When will it be our turn?" I whispered. "Is this universe so against our happiness that we can't be together?"

"We were supposed to go to university together, then get married and have as many spider-cat babies as we wanted." I sniffled. "Your existence shouldn't be expunged. No one deserves that."

"Believe me I want nothing more than to live out our dream life together, I want to grow old with you and argue over stupid things, like where I last placed the TV remote...But, I have to do this." Peter wept softly.

This was unfair, did the hero gig that Dad used to talk about so much include a plethora of lost loved ones? First it was him, then Nat, and Cap, Thor's off in space somewhere, and the person that promised to be by my side for the rest of my life has to be obliterated from my memory.

I can't take anymore loss, I can't...It's too much, What if Pepper is next? I can't keep letting people in, loving them, only to realize my time with them is shorter than I had anticipated. But it's what I have to do, Understand and move on.

I blinked the rest of my tears away. "I understand. It's your great responsibility." I smiled through my tears. He grabbed my face into his hands, and firmly pressed his lips onto mine.

Our lips will reconcile for the last time, I don't know when the next time will be, and that thought alone terrified me. What if Peter's righteous heart won't allow him to approach me when all of this is over? Don't be cynical, he promised.

I refused to let go, because I knew what was coming after that detachment. My arms rose to lock his neck in, and his hands hugged my waist, holding me impossibly close.