My Only Angel l.s.

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 homophobia, bullying, slurs, and transphobia in here 

I woke up the next morning warm and tried I try not to think about the night before. it's too much cause if I start to think about it I'm gonna do something I regret. I get up and walk to my bathroom jump in the shower, I scrub myself well a little hard as a way of mentally getting the thoughts from last night rubbed off of me. when I finish I get out and brush my teeth and lightly shave after all that getting ready putting on my perfume and deodorant and such I fix my hair and walk to my closet.

I love my clothes and dressing up but I don't know what to wear so I just grab purple panties and black sheer tights with a fishnet pattern a white shirt that 1 size too big and tuck it in and put on a purple skirt and grab my slight platform white converses. I walk down the stairs to Lottie drinking tea and I go to make some for myself. Yorkshire of course.

" Lottie we need to leave in ten"

" fine " 

I walk to the counter grab an apple and start eating and wait for her to come down the stairs again from brushing her teeth. we walk out the door and get in the car our book sacks are already in there from Friday since there was no use for them over the weekend. I wait for Liam to send the football schedule so I know when practice is as I'm thinking of it Liam text me the schedule and we have practice every day but Fridays until the season starts then we will have games every Friday so I groan and get out Lottie asking me where I'm going I walk up to the house and grab the bag I made with footie stuff in it and walk back out and throw it in the backseat and walk back around sitting back in the driver's seat again. I start the car and back out of the driveway   

" lou, I have a question how did you know you were gay?" Lottie ask 

ok hold on um what 

"I just knew I was always flamboyant and it was obvious to me I didn't like the other girls,  but not everyone is that lucky some times it takes forever to figure out" I pause and she is silent so I ask "why?" 

she lets out a sigh " I don't know I might be bi"  she says in a shy voice 

I smile widely and says loudly with so much excitement "Lottie that wonderful "ahh all gay siblings 

"I said might lou I don't know"

"well you can always find out" 

"how"

"hang out with a girl like that"

"But I'm not ready"

"no, I meant in a kinda date-y way like you and a girl got to a carnival or movies and see how you feel and if there is some new kinda weird feeling you have come talk to me I will help you" I say and pause then say "I will always love you Lottie don't forget," I say and pet her head 

" did you just pet me " Lottie says laughing and we bust out laughing trying to focus on the road 

the laughter dies down as we approach school and Lottie's turns to me "I love you too" we high five and get out of the car and I grab my bags and we walk to our friend group 

I see Liam first drop my bags and hold on to his shoulders and collapse into him. I can hear him laughing from dramatics 

" aw already tried baby" he asks in a teasing voice 

I just nod and the group laughs out of the corner of my eye I see Zayn's eyes full of jealously but a smile on his face. will say something later to him

I stand up and just walk over to Michael and Gigi who are talking after a goodbye to Liam and put my arms on their shoulders and join in their conversation as wait for school to start the bell rings minutes later I look around for Niall waiting for him to pop out of nowhere but I don't see him until I look over to Harry's group and there he is looking so out of place with him on one side of Harry and Kendall attached to Harry on the other I just walk over there go through the middle look Harry in the eye then Kendall with an unphased looked painted on my faces grab Niall's hand and look at his face he is smiling at me and drag him away knowing I did a good thing. I hear harry calling for Niall and I just look at harry and glare and look away with the roll of my eyes Niall turns me around and hugs me saying thank you I let go saying your welcome and we walk into school and I can feel his eyes on both of us as we walk up the small stairs to the school.