𝐆𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐌𝐢𝐬𝐬𝐢𝐧𝐠 // Oikawa X reader

𝗔𝘄𝗮𝗸𝗲𝗻

My eyes open.

I stand in a pitch black void.

There isn't gravity to some things. My clothes flow and move freely when I move, but I stay on the ground.

The table.

The table I'm laying on is silver and cold. I notice I'm wearing a hospital gown.

What's going on?

I try to look around to see something.

Anything.

Where am I?

I sit up and swing my legs around onto the floor.

My feet get wet by the ground.

The ground is a body of water.

A loud thunderous voice erupts. Is it just in my head?

The one I used to always hear in my head before everything was ruined. Before it was corrupted.

You did it.

What did I do exactly?

Not sure.

You did a good job whatever it was.

What now?

You decide.

You've been stuck in this loop for awhile now.

I have to restart it now. 

What are my options?

You can leave it all behind if you want.

Or you can go back to the mess you're living.
Like a dumbass.

Leave it behind now?

You aren't meant to die yet.

I have to restart.

You'll have to live with these memories again.
If that's what you chose.

What about him?

If you leave now, the boy in this timeline will never see you again. What happens next is unknown.

It's up to me.

Why can't this just be done? I just wanted him to be happy.
I wanted to be happy.

Couldn't you just do that for me?

You know that isn't a thing.

We're smarter than that.

Right.

What if..

I just forgot about this.

What if I went back and was happy. And this could all just be a bad memory.

A dream.

A dream?

I don't

have
time

right now.

What?

Why did you take so long?

I don't have time.

I don't want to do this.

Is this all in my head?

What the hell has become of my life?

Is it too late to go back? To when we were happy

You'll remember everything.

I have time.

One minute.

After that the decision won't be yours.

I don't care that you have time.

I don't even know if I want my time anymore.

It doesn't matter what you want.

I don't want to be selfish...

But I don't know if I can keep this up anymore.

I feel tears pricking through the sides of my eyes.

Do you know what love feels like?

No.

Do you love him?

I don't know.

I care.
Does that mean anything?

What about with Ushijima. Did you love him?

I had no one else.

No one else...

you wanted?

He was all you had. But was he the best thing you had in your life? Our best friend? Did thinking of him make you smile and you wanted nothing more than to be with him?

No.

The boy with these titles is not him.

It's Oikawa.

I don't...

When you were with Ushijima. You went to bed thinking of Oikawa. You missed him. Every single day.

Is that not love?

...

When you failed your test and wanted nothing more than comfort, you thought of him. Not your boyfriend at the time.

Is there anything else to be said?

We've known this.
I guess this is your time to catch up.

...

The question is...

Can you leave him?

All this time.

I never loved anyone else to know?

Nothing can replace him to you.

That I can promise.

I can't leave him.

Is this your choice?

Yes.

...

Hello?