𝕆𝕟𝕖 𝕠𝕗 𝕒 𝕂𝕚𝕟𝕕- 𝕁𝕦𝕕𝕖 𝔹𝕖𝕝𝕝𝕚𝕟𝕘𝕙𝕒𝕞

Part 27

Aaliyah's POV:

Bella and I are outside studying for an exam when one of my classmate Jordan who I've never talked to, comes up to us and starts talking to me

Jordan: so one brother wasn't enough for you?

Bella and I just looked at each other confused when he said that

Lia: what, are you talking about?

Jordan: don't act like you don't know what I'm talking about

Lia: no I'm serious, I don't know what you're talking about

He looked at me for a second before realizing that I was telling the truth, he pulled out his phone and showed me an article that said
"Jude Bellingham's Girlfriend cheated on him with his brother" and it had pictures of Jobe and I from Monday's match. I immediately feel so disgusted over the fact that they're are talking about me like that on the internet, I hate when the press talks about Jude and I's relationship and add unnecessary lies to get more readers. I always knew the British press was toxic, but I didn't realize how toxic it was until Jude and I started dating. They take things way out of context and make them more dramatic than it actually is, I'm sure all tabloids are like this but the British press is just it's own kind of toxicity.

Lia: Great, just what I needed today

I said as I stood up and walked to my next class, Bella followed me asking me if I was okay

Bella: you okay?

Lia: yeah, just tired with the tabloids making false narratives about my relationship

Bella just gave me a hug because by the sound of my voice, she could tell I wasn't okay

Bella: I'm sorry about that

Lia: it's okay, I'm used to it

It wasn't okay and I wasn't used to it, but I didn't want her to know

Bella: okay, text me when you you're done with classes

She said in an unconvinced tone, before going a different direction. I only had two more classes left and I was done with school today, I was planning to just take a long nap before doing any assignments. In the past three days I've only slept for 2 hours each day all because I'm up late doing assignments, school is draining the last bit of "happiness" I have inside of me and it's just really hard to live like this. I don't even know what is happening around me anymore, I am so out of touch with reality it scares me. My memory is getting way worse, I don't believe anything around me is real, I feel like this is all just a never ending nightmare I can't escape no matter how hard I try. I don't know how to cope with everything, I just want someone to tell me everything will be okay. I've been convincing everyone around that everything is okay because I don't want to disappoint them with my relapse. The person I'm most scared to disappoint is Jude because he doesn't deserve any of my bs, sometimes i feel like he deserves someone better, someone mentally stable and not me.

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My professors ended up giving a lot of assignments so when I got home I couldn't take a nap, I instead started working on them. I just completed 3 assignments and I have 4 more left, I decide to give myself a little break because I can't think straight right now. So I FaceTime Jude