"It's late and very dark outside, i don't think it's safe to go alone ." He said putting his coat back on . Ugh great , what do i do now ?
I took a look at my watch , 9:45 . I still have some time to get rid of him . "Fine , i'll stay too" i sighed taking of my scarf and putting it in the closet then sat down on the sofa infront of tv .
I turned on the tv watching some random boring shows to pass time and see if tom leave or go to his room so i can run away . But the plan backfired and tom joined me on the sofa .
"I love this show!" He said before sitting down next to me . I didn't even know what show was on . All i was thinking about was running away and meet Ryan .
"U-um so do i" i nervously said looking at my watch again . What if ryan think i' not coming? What if he leaves cause i'm not on time ? I started moving my leg up and down fast , an old habit i always do when i'm stressed and nervous.
I noticed tom looking at me a few times but i didn't turned my gaze from the tv screen until i felt him moving and getting closer to me . Before i could react he lay down and softly placed his head on my lap. I stopped shaking it and finally calmed down but instead my heart started beating fast . I was surprised by his action and at the same time couldn't say anything . What does he have that makes me feel like this ?
"You know you've actually never talked about yourself , cheeks " he said while facing the tv but his head still on my lap . I could feel the vibration of his voice on my thighs which gave me goosebumps all over my body .
"There's no interesting thing you wanna know" i answered and shuffled on my seat a bit his soft curls tickling me .
"Hmm For example as i told you before i have 3 brothers . Sam and harry are my twin and paddy is my little brother. How about you ? Any siblings? " he politely asked me . I don't know why is he starting such a random conversation and why he wants to know more about me all of a sudden ...
"Why you wanna know ? " i asked him but felt bad after that question skiped my mouth . It seems like he really wanted to get to know me after all and i'm pushing him away .
"Never mind" He sighed probably in disappointment and wanted to get up . As his head left my lap i felt a cold and empty feeling so i pushed him back down unconsciously . "I- i don't have any siblings . I'm an only child" i answered hoping he won't leave .
"Oh , so you were always like in the centre of attention right ? " he turned his head so now he is facing me but i didn't dare to look down . "Unfortunately yes..." i sighed remembering all my memories. When all of my friends were hanging out but i was forced to stay at home , when everyone went on school trip and had fun but i wasn't allowed to and pretty recent when i couldn't choose my own career. Yeah being the centre of attention is not that fun .
" why unfortunately? That must be cool "
"No it's not " i said shaking my head.
"Is that why you live with your aunt? " he politely asked. I've never seen him so calm and soft he was always annoying me or joking around but now he is laying on my lap asking questions about me and my life . I can never tell how many personalities does this boy have !
"Well i..." i paused . The only person that knows about the back story with my family is julia . I've never talked about it with anyone because i'm scared they judge me or my parents , but i think tom should know why this competition is so important for me after all he is my teammate and my ..... my good trusted friend .
"My parents didn't want me to study in brit school and generally study art so i left them and came to Kingston to study in my dream school and live with my aunt " i explained. " i thought winning this competition would be one of those i made it moments and i can prove myself to them " i took a deep breath after i finished talking , it felt like i've got rid of something heavy on my chest .
He thought for a couple of seconds "We'll try our best to win then" he said with a cute smile while i stared down at him . I felt too many butterflies in my stomach a feeling that not Ryan or anyone else had ever gave me . "Thanks for sharing your story with me " he whispered quietly but loud enough for me to hear it and turned back to face the tv .
"So where you used to live before Kingston?" He asked while looking at the tv screen.
I was gonna answer but the sound of my phone buzzing got my attention.
Ryan💕: You're not coming , right ? :(
I quickly looked at the time on my phone, 10:08 . I totally forgot about him . What should i do now ? I wish juls was here to help me .
" i have to go to bathroom , i'll be right back" i said as tom sat down on the sofa setting my leg free .
I really don't wanna do this but i have to make the right choice and that's meeting ryan . I quickly got out of our suite when tom was enjoying that show on tv .
I never felt worse in my life . We were having an actual calming conversation just about us after all this time but i left him. I just hope this is not wrong .
After of a minute walking i finally found ryan standing on the side walk waiting for me .
"Hey" i waved at him and he waved back.
"Sorry i'm late i- i had to help julia with something " i lied .
"It's ok . Here i got you coffee " he kindly said handing me one of the Starbucks coffees in his hand and i nodded as a thank you .
We started walking to nowhere while i took a sip of my coffee . I narrowed my eyes in disgust but gladly he didn't notice . Ew what the hell is this ? It tastes awfully bitter . How people drink this ?
"Mhm i like this" i lied , again . Just to broke the awkward silence.
"Awesome" he spoked. Seems like the silence is back again.
We walked and walked but barely talked (watch me be a poet 🤌🏻 ) just some short conversation about random things until i felt a drop falling on my cheek . It's going to rain , great !
Not some minutes later the rain got heavier and dark gray colored clouds filled the sky making the whole street darker than it was .
"Here" ryan bring out an umbrella and opend it up on our heads then pulled me closer to himself by my waist.
I looked at him a bit surprised as he stopped walking and stared at me . He scanned all my face them slowly raised his hand to my face and put a strand of hair behind my ear .
"You look beautiful" he whispered . That was unexpected... I didn't know what to do . Should i just leave him and run away like a psychopath ? Or should i kiss him like a psychopath?
But he didn't let me decide because he leaned in and started to make the space between us small and smaller until our lips were almost tuching . I could feel his warm breath on my skin which made my heart beat fast and faster each second .
Should i kiss him ?
