𝘯. 𝘴𝘤𝘩𝘯𝘢𝘱𝘱 𝘪𝘮𝘢𝘨𝘪𝘯𝘦𝘴 ♡'･ᴗ･'♡

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𝓭𝓮𝓪𝓻 𝓭𝓲𝓪𝓻𝔂

january 26th. the day my world seemed to shatter. today was meant to be a day of remembering all the great moments in our relationship and to years making more. until he gave me that stare and i knew what was coming.

all those nights i got stood up at dates to be told that he got caught up with schoolwork. a blatant lie being as he was the most uneducated dumb idiot anyone could come across. a small voice in me wanted to believe him because it hurt too much to think there may have been someone else.

sometimes it's better face the facts though, rather than try and forget it for years on end. that's what i tried to do and quite frankly it broke me.

family and friends saw it as well teachers at my school. they noticed 'significant spikes in my grades pointing down' apparently and were worried for me.

since when did school care? now that suddenly i didn't put my hand up in lessons and do all their work for them.

i was the easy kid in class, the one who put her head down and just got on, helped others so the teacher didn't have to, did the extension tasks and always did the homework on time.

as i began to think more and more about what my boyfriend was doing whilst i was sat at home alone, waiting by the phone, i detached from everything else and didn't care as much as i used to.

i stared at my screen as it showed the words '27 unfinished assignments' and i felt nothing. compared to my old self, who would be frantically running around her house, contacting teachers and apologising for her lack of commitment.

but this human changed me and not for the good. its funny how quickly that can happen, and the scary thing was i longed for him back.

even though all he caused was pain, anger and distraction. but to me that didn't matter, all i wanted was for someone to love me the way romeo loved juliet. for someone to care.

it's not like i didn't have it either. i had a great home life and friends.

boy did i have a good friend.

his name was noah. i hate the word was its so sad. recapping what you don't have anymore. well i do just not to the extent i used to have.

noah was the same age as me, brown haired, semi popular like me, a football player, kinda nerdy like me and the kindest person i ever met.

we talked everyday since we were 13. we hung out at our tree house and ate boxes of popsicles until we felt sick to our stomachs. we had huge water fights after school in the summer, we went skating together, had all our classes together, we used to watch series and cry together. name anything and we did it together.

until we found partners. he found his girlfriend, lauren and i found my boyfriend, atlas.

lauren was polar opposite of me. at least i thought so. she was popular and dumb and i was quiet and nerdy. she was dark haired and brown eyed and i was blue eyed and blonde haired. she wore makeup and went to parties and i wore no makeup and read books for fun.

as time went on, me and noah started to drift. rarely talking, only sharing glances in hallways and quick hellos.

a couple months ago, noah and lauren broke up. it was a big thing in school as they were the famous couple of our year at the time.

and now, im sitting on my bed, sobbing my broken, little heart out, longing for only one persons arm wrapped around me.

and not atlas'.

my finger hovered over his name and i hesitated before i felt a familiar vibration in my hand.

his name popped up and a green dial button telling me to swipe to answer appeared.

i gasped and hesitated before swiping, pushing the phone to my ear, waiting to hear his soothing his voice.

"y/n?"

"noah?"

"i heard what happened, are you okay?"

to say i was surprised was an understatement. i was jaw on the floor, frozen in place shocked.

after months he calls. what do i say?

"yeah, i- i um. i don't know."

a familiar feeling at the back of my throat and i swallow, in an attempt to wash away my trapped cries.

"noah."

"im right here."

"i really need a hug right now."

"im on my way."

"can you bring -"

"bringing spaghetti. ill wait outside."

"thank you noah."

"im always here."

the call ended and i smiled knowing he was coming.

i turned off my light and shut the curtains, before leaving my room.

noah lived across from me so it wasn't that far away.

i walk out the front door and see him walking towards my house, with spaghetti on his lead.

he saw me and opens his arms, leading me into him for a hug.

i run towards him and wrap my body around him, sobbing immediately.

he rubs me back and shushes me, calming me down.

"it's okay."

"no, it's not."

i pull away from our warm embrace and look at him.

"nothing about what i did was okay. i left you, the only person who's ever been capable of making me happy. it was never atlas. it was you from the very start. noah, im so so sorry." i break down and i desperately try to breathe in the fresh air.

he smoothes my cheek before kissing me harshly, making me smile and wrap my arms around his torso.

he drags his hands through my hair and he makes a content sound at the moulding of our lips.

we pull away and he smiles. "it's always been you, baby. be mine?"

i nod and smile a huge grin. spaghetti barks and i laugh, hugging noah.

i was never sad about atlas, i was sad about my loss of friendship with noah and now i have more than that.

i have the boyfriend I've always dreamt about, and im finally at peace.

so lol
im back????
did u miss me baes 💋
i missed you.
also thank you for all the love!
ily guys.