Y/Ns POV:
After a long week...Steve and I finally got back from mission with Nat and Clint of course. We rescued them from HYDRA base and arrested Rumlow. I was so excited to see Bucky but I didnt know what happened yet.
"Hey, Buck, I'm home.... I told you everything was going to be okay, we rescued Clint and N-...", I said as I was entering the room, but stopped once I realized he wasn't there. "Huh...This is strange...Its not like him to just go somewhere.", I thought to myself and started searching for him across tower.
"Bucky.....,Bucky!!!", I yelled but didn't got any response.
"Bucky...Bu-", I continued shouting as I came close to Tony's office when I heard voice saying: "He is not here Y/N!", I turned around and saw Tony standing behind me, looking very angry.
"Wha-what do you mean? Tony, what happened? Where is he?", I asked panicking.
"Down in the basement... Where we keep all the monsters...." he said.
I felt rage growing inside of me. "WHAT? WHY? Tony, how could you do that?", I yelled at him.
"Y/N, he ATTACKED me! He almost KILLED me!", he said as he showed me the bruise on his arm where Bucky apparently grabbed him.
"What? Bu-but why? He had to have a reason.... He wouldn't just attack you for no reason?", I said.
*Or would he?, I thought in my mind. I didn't know what to think. I cared for Bucky and I trusted him but Tony's brusie looked pretty real and kinda bad. Is it possible that Bucky lied all this time to me*
" He is a monster, Y/N. That's his reason", Tony said more calmly now.
I snapped out of my mind and looked him in his brown eyes that looked at me concerned.
"Ugh, I don't know what to believe... I need to talk to Bucky. Please, Tony let me go downstairs alone...", I sighed as I begged him to listen.
"Okay, but talk to him just trough glass, ok, Y/N? I don't want you to get hurt.", He asked and I agreed because at this moment I wasn't sure if I could trust Bucky.
As I walked down in basement I could just see part of Buckys cage and as I knew he was in there I started talking:" Hey, Bucky... Are you OK? It's me, Y/N. Listen, I wanted to talk to you... I talked to Tony and I...", I stopped once when I got close to cage and saw him shaking on the floor. I panicked. I tried to open the door but I couldn't, I didn't know how.
"TONY!", I screamed and he immediately run down.
"Please, open the door", I begged him.
"Y/N... We had a deal..."
"Tony! He is having a panic attack, I need to help him, please open the door... NOW!" I said, my voice was shaking.
He sighed, and opened the door.
"Step aside...", I said to Tony as I run inside the cage sitting down next to Bucky and pulling him into a hug.
"Shhhhh, it's ok, Buck, I'm here...", I said."Y/N? I-I'm sorry...", Bucky said looking at me scared as he closed his eyes and collapsed in my arms. He was exhausted from that panic attack.
*He is sorry? For what? Did Tony told the truth? But how? Why? All this questions were going trough my head and I started to suspect in Bucky even if I didn't hear his side of a story. To be honest I even started to be afraid of him.*
I snapped out of my mind when I felt Bucky shifting. He woke up and sit up right next to me. I don't know why but I panicked. I started to be afraid of him for no apparent reason. He noticed that I was afraid and in attempt to calm me down he put his hand on my shoulder. I jumped back.
"NO! DON'T TOUCH ME! Y-YOU...",I screamd and my voice shaking.
"Y/N? Wha-what? Why? What happend? Are you mad at me because of something?", Bucky asked looking at me confused.
"Am I mad? Bucky, you attacked Tony for no reason. YES! I am mad and I'm scared. How can I be sure you won't hurt me?" I said almost crying now.
Bucky POV:
I couldn't belive what I just heard. Y/N acussed me for attacking Tony even though she didn't know what really happend. Y/N... The one and only person who actually believed in me, the one who believed I could be saved even when I didn't believe that.
"Is that really what you belive?", I said holding back tears.
"Why would Tony lied? He showed me the brusie, Bucky and it looks really bad.", she said and her (Y/E/C) eyes were fool of tears. I couldn't stand watching her so scared of me and I realized there is no much use in convincing her otherwise.
"Y/N, you know that I wold never hurt you but I can see that you are afraid of me right now and I can't stand it so instead of trying to convince you othewise I will let you find out the truth yourself. I know you will and I will stay here for as long as you need or want me to.", I said.
" No, no, no.... Y-you... Ugh, you won't stay here, Bucky... ", she sighed.
" Bu-but you just said... "
" I was wrong... ", she cutted me off.
I gave her a small smile.
" I-I mean... I still don't trust you as I did before so you will not sleep in my room anymore but you are right... I do not know the whole story and you don't deserve to be here... At least not yet. ", she said letting out a light laugh.
I laughed back. "OK, thank you.. ", I said. "but can I ask you one thing if it's not to much?"
"Sure... Go ahead.", she said.
"Could I at least stay in a room that is close to your room? I-I won't bother you... It's just..."I stopped talking, looking at her realizing that I don't want to lose her. I want to be close to here in any way possible. I love her and I didn't have guts to say that to her.
" It's just what? ", I snapped out of my mind when I heard her voice.
" It's just... I... Y/N... this week without you was the worst week of my life. I didn't feel so scared and unsafe even in my intire time in Hydra or when you appeard on my doorstep in Romania and I thought that you came there to kill me. And I don't want to feel that way anymore. I want to feel safe and you... You make me feel safe Y/N.", I said blushing like crazy.
" Of course you can... Your room will be right next to mine", she said smiling and also blushing a litlle.
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Secret behind blue eyes
FanfictionThis is my first story. I hope you'll like it. Story take place after the events in Age of Ultron and pre Civil war. It also takes place in alternate universe were Bucky and Steve did not know each other before Buckys time in Hydra. Reader was the o...