i'm rotten. i'm terribly sick. i'm going to die.
this is it. this, you see, is everything i was. everything i won't ever be again. this is everything i've never been able to become. this. this is it.
look, it's my lover, he who converts me, my antiquarian, all my loss. it's him.
this is it.
here comes death.
how sentimental.
