Ayanokouji was living his dream life as an average student, until he decided to try out a Visual Novel that was recommended by Ike. One thing led to another, and now he is being blackmailed into all of Year 2 learning about his past or admitting tha...
I haven't uploaded in 21 full days. For all of you that thought this was an actual chapter...
April Fools!
I know I said that I would finish this story, and I really did want to, but I don't think I actually can. I took a little break from writing, and it just feels like I've lost everything. I'm not writing how I want. I'm not writing how I feel I should be.
On top of that, I don't think I have the same love for this fic as when I first started, nor the motivation.
I've been doubting myself a lot lately as well.
I mean, I've always had self-doubts, but lately it's just been in overdrive.
"Is this fic even decent?"
"People only read this to pass the time. It's not actually entertaining."
"Why did I even start writing in the first place?"
"Maybe I shouldn't have started writing at all."
I've reread through my old stuff, and a lot of it just seems like it wasn't even written by me. Even my last published chapter seems completely foreign to me. The little work I've done since coming back can't even compare to it, yet I've spent so much time and effort on it.
To the ones that enjoy this story, I'm truly, truly sorry.
I've taken on way too much, and I think I should've started out smaller. I probably shouldn't have started at all even.I don't think I enjoyed the process of writing like an ideal writer should. Only the results of said process.
I'm sure there are multiple reaction fics out there that are leagues better, done by more talented, and dedicated writers for you to discover.
I'm not trying to say this fic will never be updated again. I don't know the future or how things will turn out. I very well could come back in 2 months and finish it. I very well could never show my face here again. I can't promise anything.
I'm going to leave an image that perfectly sums up what I'm feeling right now. I'd like to just drop the image and publish, but I've always had a habit of ending chapters off in a certain way. So...
Until next time.
I hope there will be a next time.
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...You're still scrolling?
You're only really wasting your time you know?
No really, there's nothing else. Don't give yourself false hope.
Pffffffft.
Hahahaha! April Fools again! Did I get you?
No, I'm not quitting or taking an extended break or anything!
Yes I still love this fic, even more so than when I started! At first it was a bit hard to get back into writing, but it didn't take too long to get my flow back. Guess the only part I was serious about was the doubting, but every writer goes through it I'm sure.
So yeah, just think of this as an Author's Note. I took a break that was supposed to be a day, but then it doubled, and then that doubled, and damn near doubled again, before I finally started writing a week later. I would've had it out a lot sooner, but I left it at a pretty interesting spot last time, and I had to decide how bad Kushida was going to fuck things up. I'm about 4000 words in, and let me just say, shit is really hitting the fan in this one.
Expect the real Chapter 8 to come out in the next few days. Tomorrow, probably not. Saturday, 50/50. Sunday, 90/10. If it's not out by Monday, I probably died.
Well I won't keep you waiting much longer! Until next time!
(Not responding to comments at the top, if there are any, because I don't want to give it away.)
