marvel oneshots x reader [Requests Closed]

oh y/n (request)

TW self harm

Request ~ anonymous

Reader ~ 17 she/her

Reader is depressed and harms herself, the cast doesn't know but one day sees the scars and decides to send someone to talk to her
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*y/n's pov*

Today I a bad day a very bad day

Sometimes the day can be okay or good but usually it's bad so I'm not really surprised

There's so much going on right now so much stress and anxiety which is by the way not helping the depression

It's like life just pushed me into the deep end and I don't know how to swim

Im slowly drowning with no one to notice and help, so I try my hardest to keep my head above the water but sometimes that doesn't work sometimes you stop fighting sometimes you let the darkness take over even if you don't want to

That's what it feels like Today it feels like I've been dragged under the water and I'm holding my breath waiting for the moment I inhale and except the darkness

Why you may ask? Well that's because one of the worst things that could've happened, happened and that's why I find my self here in my trailer bathroom grabbing the razors getting ready to cut once again

I've been trying to stop I really have everytime I've thought about it for the past month I thought about the cast and how they've welcomed me to the family and that helped ground me but this just pushed me over the edge and my mind reverted to what its used to when this happens

(Italics is a flashback)

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Robert, Scar, Lizzie, Evans and I were currently in the lunch tent eating

Thankfully I had an early day so I was now done for the day, I was planning on going to my trailer and relaxing maybe take a nap to try and ease my mind

It's been rough having to go through all of this alone i know I could easily just tell them I have depression or I'm having a hard time but I don't want them to pity me

I was brought from my thoughts when I felt my sweater become wet

"Shit I'm so sorry n/n" Evans says quickly grabbing napkins and handing them to me

"Oh its okay no worries accidents happen" I sigh

Without thinking I quickly take off my sweater leaving me in my black t-shirt

That was the biggest mistake I could have ever made

Even though the scars had healed or were almost fully healed you could still see them, there were 5 on my left wrist and 3 on my right nevermind all the others that had already healed and started to faded

I quickly realized what I had done and brought my arms to my stomach while the sweater was dropped over them

I hoped the others were to busy to notice and I thought I had gotten away with it until I heard Robert speak

"What was that on your arm kiddo?" He asked

"Oh um during one of the takes I got a little scratch nothing to worry about" I lied