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Chapter 7

I'm on my bike and I'm dreading going back to my mom's I can't say home, I haven't even spent a night there. Too worried about drugs and all that stuff, Nate I don't want to drag them along with me, into all this stuff that's just started.

The sun is setting and I arrive in front of the house. Through the window I see my mom and sisters sitting on the couch. I walk to the front door and ring the bell.

-Me: Here we go

The door opens and my mom stands in front of me. I wasn't expecting anything and that's what was happening. Or almost I stand there, motionless before her:

-Mother: You don't have anything to say to me by any chance!

-Me: What are you talking about?

-Mother: Are you kidding me?! It's been two weeks since you left! You came and didn't even spend a night! Your sister calls you and you tell her that everything is fine, that you're managing! After that, Miss Kylee totally disappears. Then you're back, as if nothing had happened!

I glare at Lexie while my mother continues to yell at me.

-Mother: I don't even know you! I don't know who you are!

-Me: Maybe you don't know me because I'm the one who left to take care of dad! If you knew everything that happened, you'd shut your mouth! Not even a phone call! You didn't check up on him, you stayed at home, quiet, while I took care of him, of his business! You didn't care and the worst thing is that even now you don't care! The important thing is that you don't have anything, the girls too! But me on the other hand, in your eyes, I am nothing! You know what? I'm out of here! Honestly, there's no point in staying with you, with someone who's supposed to be your mother but who prefers her little self to her daughter! But you know what, for me you are nothing in fact It's over You can sleep easy tonight, I'm not here anymore The burden is gone

-Mother: Don't talk to me like that! Leave if you want, I don't care, you are nothing to me!

I leave, holding back my tears, my throat tight. So tight that no sound can come out. I remember my meeting before my hospitalization, Rue. Then I decide to go to her house, after all we have a focus: drugs. I go to her house and knock on her door.

She opens it for me:

-Rue: Hi Kylee!

-Me: Hi, how are you?

-Rue: I'm fine! Uh what are you doing here?

-Me: I wanted to know if you wanted to hang out?

-Rue: Yeah that would be great, there's a party at someone's house I can't remember the name. I wasn't planning on going but if you want we can go together and get high

-Me: Uh, yeah, I'd love to. But do you have anything on you?

-Rue: Who do you think I am, of course! But don't tell anyone. I don't want any trouble and only you know.

-Me: What? That you do drugs?

-Rue: Nah that everyone knows or knew I'm supposed to be clean for 3 months but I'm lying.

I put a finger over my mouth.

-Me: Secret kept! No one will know!

She takes me by the hand and we go to the party. But just before we enter, she pulls me by the arm and points to two white lines on the bumper of a car.

-Street: One for me and one for you! And

I see her reach into her pocket and pull out two pills.

-Street: More moly!