suspicious love

🖤PART. 23. PAIN🖤

Jk pov...

Kai: let's go let me show you all your rooms.

        Kai saaid and went out from the basement. I looked at Jimin and we went behind him without waiting for others. Soon we reach in front of two rooms.

Kai: the left one is for You Jk and other one is for Jimin. Good night.

   He said and went away. I immediately went inside my room and locked the door. I slight down to the door and hugged ny knees as a sob left from my mouth.

Jk: eom-ma, appa i miss- you. Why you left me here in-this cruel w-or-ld alone. -Why th-ey betr-ayed me. I lov-ed them -with my who-le heart and they?  *crying*

      I said and cried more.

Jk: why god? Why? My own hyungs were the o-ne wh-o killed my pa--rents. I always- loved a-nd cherished t-hem like they are also my parents. Was everyth-ing a lie? Jin hyun-g 's mothe-rly- love, RM h-yung 's fart-her ly behavior, Tae-hyung hyung 's care. Was everyt-hing fake?

Jk: the one wh-om I lo-ved very much. The lov-e of my life also hid this much big secr-et, how ca-n I- forgive -her? Also she is the sister of y-our killers. *dry chuckle* what a joke,- I loved a innoc-ent soul -but now got to know she was never an innocent. How- can i forgive her? *crying*

  I got up from floor and went near to the big window. I opened the window and looked at the moon. Even today's moon also seems like sad. Suddenly my eyes went to the big tree on the mansion. There were a light also settled. I saw a girl were sitting their hugging a guy while the guy was hugging her tightly. After some seconds I realised they were no one else but Y/N and Beomgyu.

( I didn't got a pic like I wanted, so just imagine it's night and there was a boy who is hugging her.)

Y/N pov...

  I untied Jungkook and went out from the basement. I ran out of mah mansion and sat under the tree in the garden.

(𝘼𝙣𝙮 𝙬𝙖𝙮𝙨 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙗𝙖𝙨𝙚 :

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      I hugged my knees as I let out a loud sob.

Y/N: wae? W-ae God? Why I am t-he one w-ho has to lose thei-r love ones. First e-omm-a a-ppa and now J-ungko-ok. I did I ha-ve d-one to -do? W-hy can't I li-ve in peace, can't I have a little happi--ne-ss? D-on't I deser-ve it-? Why I go-t hate e-very-time. Now Jun-gkook- also hate me, he i-s- regret--ting lovin-g me, he called me a monster, a kil-ler, an evil b-itch! Now he wi-ll also leave me like others. * badly crying*

Y/N: why ev-eryone hate me-? Can't I have a norma-l life like ot-hers? It's hurti-ng me, it's hur-ting m-e know-ing that he h-ate me t-he most, he wis-hes my &death, h-e disguised me. It's hu-rti-ng me knowin-g front -now on I won-'t be able t-o see the pu-re love in his eye-s, wh-ich is now fill h-atred. *crying badly*
   

     I was  crying so badly that, now I was having problem to breathe. I was breathing heavily when suddenly I felt someone hugged me tightly and started rubbing my back.

Beom: Shh! Calm down. Please take deep breath.

         I did what he said. I started taking deep breath, but it was becoming more hard for me. I tried to take deep breath and after some time my breath become normal.

Beom: let it out! Don't bottle up yourself more.

Y/n: why Beom? W-hy ever-yone h-ate me? Even afte-r hav-ing everyone around me, I feel al-one. Why can-'t th-e-y - me? My feelin-gs? Y-es, I am strong but-- that doesn't- mean I don't get hurt! I -don't have h-eart! Jungko-ok called- me a mon-ster, a killer, a heartless. But but -he can't understand- th-at I also ha-v-e reasons w-hy I bec-ame li-ke this? How I became lik-e this, why eve-ryone calls me a monster, psyc-ho but did -he as--ked me -why I b-ecam-e like this?  * Crying badly*

Beom:  he doesn't know what happened to you but still said rubish about you. He sill regrets it very badly, he said this all out of anger, but don't mind him cause it's also hard for him to prosess everything. Today his love proposed him, then kidnapped him. He got to know his own hyungs is the one who killed his family. Whom he's afraid, scared and hates is his lover. His most trusted peoples betrayed him, so he need time to understand the situation right?

Y/N: hmm, *wipes her tears* your right. I should have wait more but I ---

Beom: but you didn't wanted to start a relationship with lies. I know but now calm down.

        He said and hugged me tightly. We stayed like this for a while and when sleep started getting over me, I didn't even know.

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I am really sorry for not updating. But I was very stressed cause of my school and tution works, so I couldn't got time to write. Also I was planning to publish another book, which I have wrote on my exercise book. Just need to copy it. Also I am writing another one story. So that's why I couldn't update sorry, once again. Bye!