After I gave him a cold shoulder I felt really bad, what if he really changed? What if he wants everything back?
How could I be so stupid?
February 16, 2022
We were having a normal conversation
Me: "I hate mustache and beard"
Ryan: "they say it's uncomfortable to kiss with them"
Me: "who says?"
Ryan: "it's not important"
Me: "I want to know how you know😏"
Then I get a voice mail from him that changed everything
No he's not gay
"*Untranslatable* I broke up with my girlfriend today"
It felt like he was thinking about telling me the whole day, it felt out of spot and felt like a joke, a lie
"Why?" My heart started to beat fast, I felt my body burning
"We were together for 5 months and we broke up today"
"Why? Did you upset her?"
He told me that she didn't like how childish he was with her, he said that she didn't like the cute stuff couples do, but come on what person wouldn't like "couple-like" attention
I tried to comfort him "it's ok we will all forget all the people in past, you will forget and I will forget"
"Who will you forget?"
"My exes and current ones"
"Do you have someone?"
My heart practically stopped, my face was red from all the heat, what do I say? I mean I don't have anyone but I don't want him to think that I was waiting for him all the time
And I decided to lie
"Kind of"
"Long-distance or not?"
Crap I'll have to lie again, if o say long-distance he will think it's not serious
"In real life"
"Lucky"
He was upset, I could tell
"Ok I need to go now I have some work"
Ofcourse you do
If only I knew what I would response to this...
If only I knew...
YOU ARE READING
If only I knew...
RomanceI was feeling like writing about what I experienced with a boy for long years, so here I'm pouring my heart out I really hope this helps me to heal from it and if you're also hurt by someone I hope you heal soon too The text is very raw because I d...
