my heart is in my throat
im scared to say the words because
i might end up projectile-vomiting my heart out on the desk
i'd rather save myself that mess
you don't need to know everything
there is a black hole in my stomach that keeps growing and growing
there is a ball and chain tied to my intestines
i think they might just give way to the pull that is weighing them down
scared that i might be insane,
something bad is going to happen,
i can't shake the feeling that someone might be
watching me, HE might be watching me
reached out for help and got nothing
disappointed and lonely, scared that my intrusive thoughts will
make me commit a crime i didn't actually want to commit
i want to kill these feelings,
rip my throat out,
tie a rope around my neck and kick the bucket,
feel the blood dripping down my arms on the floor
die to feel alive again
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marble and quicksand - a poem collection.
Randomoriginal poetry by me. . . . . TW: depression, sa, suicide, food, dysphoria, selfharm