I didn't think she would tell me, I knew I left it at her house
I guess this is what I wanted
To see her face again, to talk to her even if it was just for a second
I missed the chance to do that when I saw her at target
This girl...
She is all I can think about, why did we have to end things over a stupid fight
(Hehe you still don't know what the fight was about)
I miss Astrid so much, I miss her touch, her smile her smell, and her amazing laugh
It's so contagious
I get out of my head and decide to shower so I seem put together when I see her
After my shower I throw some clothes on and lay in bed
I was about to go to sleep when Matt comes into my room
"Hey, we need to get a video out tomorrow so we have to film right now. You okay with that, or do you wanna miss this one too?" He asks me peeping his head threw the crack in my door
"Yea, I guess I'll come I have nothing better to do right now" I say getting up and following him down the stairs
While we are filming I keep zoning out thinking about her. Matt and Nick have to nudge me a couple times so I can talk in the video
"Chris this video is gonna look so choppy if I have to cut out you zoning out every few minutes" Nick tells me after hitting my arm
"Ok ok I'm sorry, I'm listening now" I say to get him off my back
I quickly check the group account to see that Astrid liked one of our posts, I click on her account and just scroll through her 'favorite post of all time' as she would say
It's weird how she didn't take it down, I mean I'm in it
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'I will never love anyone more than I love you' so stupid I think to myself then rub my eyes with my hands and get off my phone
Ayer the video I get back home and I'm about to lay back in bed but then Matt comes into my room
"Hey I'm on live, wanna aswer questions with me?" Matt asks smiling "yea sure" I say a little annoyed
I always have had a hard time saying no, it's funny cause Astrid never made me feel like I have to say yes. Anything Astrid said or thought I agreed with, fuck I miss her
"Ok first question... who is your favorite sibling" Matt says reading the question aloud
"Easy, Justin" I say "wow, ok" he says as a joke "ok well then buddy who is your favorite sibling" I say back to him
Silence
"Justin"
"Exactly, shut up" I say before Nick comes in and it just extremely silent
"BAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH" I start laughing and can't stop Matt and Nick start laughing too
We are all on the floor basically rolling around, we all eventually stop and start reading the questions again
"Oh here's one" I say and read it aloud without thinking "did you and Astrid break-" I catch my self but everyone new what I was saying
It becomes a bit silent again
To stop the silence I read a different question
"How many minutes are you guys apart" I read
"Me then two minutes later Matt then two minutes later Chris" Nick responds
We answer a few more before ending the live
Matt goes off to his room to sleep, Nick is in his room editing
Now that I finally have alone time to sleep a can't
What am I supposed to do
I lay in bed tossing and turning
Then my phone dings
New message
"Are you up"
HAHAAHAH YOU WONT KNOW WHO TEXTED HIM TILL THE NEXT TIME I WRITE LOL
