i usually do not talk a lot. i am mostly by myself. i have heard people say i'm rude and mean and weird because i don't hang out with others.
thing is, i'm not.
i am crappy at socializing. i assume it's because i used to think i am not good enough compared to the people around me. it hurts to admit but it's true.
i am constantly seeking validation from people i consider friends, and i made people's opinions have an effect on my life.
now, things are a bit different.
i don't care about what anyone has to say about me. i hardly feel things anymore.i used to spend all my time wallowing in self - pity and hating my mind for over thinking stuff.
i still do, but in a different way. it's complicated. i stopped caring not because i wanted to or because i got better.. i'm just tired of caring.
tired of everything.
living in my head is exhausting.
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to fall or not to fall
Random"but in the end, my dear, will you choose to fall or not to fall?"