to fall or not to fall

ungrateful, sad little bitch

i cry a lot. i cut myself too. i remember when my parents found out. my dad said i was doing it for attention. my little sister said i was selfish for trying to leave her behind in this world. my mum said i was hurting her too much. i was a thorn in her flesh.

i didn't understand.

they rather were upset? the audacity. the fucking audacity.

i'm the one with insomnia. i'm the one who has random breakdowns in my room with no one to tell me it's going to be okay. i'm the one clinging on to a thread of sanity. me. yeah. me. all by myself

i cry and cry and cry till my eyes are swollen and my tears refuse to fall anymore. yet somehow, i'm the attention whore. i'm the bad guy.

I'M THE FUCKING BAD GUY???!!!!

okay. fine. i'll be the bad guy. i'm a selfish, ungrateful, sad little bitch.