to fall or not to fall

goodbye

i can't keep living like this. im barely even "living", just existing.

fed up of having to take medications to be able to function.

i don't want to feel like crap anymore. my entire life i've tried to get better.

i think of "depression" as a being. depression became my bff but depression should never be anyone's bff.

it's pathetic.

i'm pathetic.

it's all too much for me now, im sorry. sometimes the best thing for some people is to give in and let go.

in the dilemma of deciding whether to fall or not to fall, i have decided to do the former.

i'm sorry that i am giving up, but not giving up hurts too much. i cannot continue to be in constant battle with the voices inside my head.

"goodbye, devenity."

"goodbye"