Living with DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder)

why i hate living with DID

⚠️TW ⚠️

MENTIONS OF SEXUAL THINGS BELOW
(Also body dysphoria)

Hey its Ethan and if you don't know I am a transgender male I have a very feminine body and I hate it and as you know I have two male alters who also hate it both of which try their best to deal with it but it's hard for them as well and I have two female alters one a young one the other being older and she likes to dress up nicely and enjoy the feminine body

That's ok right its fine I let them dress up or style differently

But see there's a problem not from them but other people

I don't know if anyone else who has DID deals with this but um I've found conversation between JD and a friend and Elizabeth and a different friend basically of those people asking them to send thrist traps or very sexual pictures of themselves dressed in the cosplays I have or in clothes that are usually known to be "sexual" (crop tops and shorts are not sexual please stop that)

Of course the two said no because me being the host I am a teenager and I don't think just because JD is 19 he has to give someone what they want and like I said the two both said no but the person wanted it still so they suggested making money off of it JD could easily make an account on only fans of course he'd have to make an account for where the money would go but he could still do it but he said no

See I've joked about starting an only fan's but I'm not serious I do joke and call myself bad names and even give prices of how much a thigh pic would be but their jokes I'm an idiot I say stupid shit all the time but yet this got to me because it's hard to deal with your friend basically asking your alters for nudes of your body

That's weird right? Like I wouldn't go to my friend if they had DID and ask an alter for their nudes it's the same body different personalities so I explained that to these two friends and they got upset and both blocked me which I didn't care and I moved on

So like this is why I hate it I wish I could just restart a new brain and not have this because it can be sexualized by weirdos out there and it sucks just because an alter is your age doesn't mean the host body is

So yea that's been bothering me a lot and other struggles I'll try to be more on this account and like more active on this book but I hardly have motivation to do some rps on my other account so yea sorry but um yea thanks for reading i guess um bye

-Ethan🍄