Ledger and The Journal [Maiden]

Entry 4. 04.25.15

Dear Mr. Wrong-person-in-a-wrong-time,

Namiss mo ba ako?

Sori na busy kasi sa wedding preps. We went to a dress shop for my wedding gown, it's a high-end store owned by a known designer whose name I can't even pronounce, and as I sit next to a stack of costly gowns.. God! I felt like a real princess! Imagine, I have to choose from all those stunning wedding dress?! Hindi ko kinaya. Ayun, I ended up choosing the simplest one.

Hay, nakakapagod palang magpakasal.. akala ko pag nag 'yes' ka na sa 'will you marry me' nya yun na yon. Happy ending na. Sabi ni Cara pag kinasal na daw kami yon palang daw yung tunay na simula. Hindi ko alam parang natakot ako tapos bigla ka na lang umeksena sa isip ko. Naisip ko rin, paano kaya kung natuloy yung kasal mo dun sa jowa mong model? Malamang hindi kita iniisip ngayon. Ayoko ngang maging kabet! Kahit sa isip lang.

Chinika na nga pala kita kay Cara kasi naman yung babaeng yon! Masyadong matalas ang pakiramdam may kakaiba daw sa akin kaya ayon, I told her I met someone that has my world stopped for the first time. Naks! Alam mo yung lahat ng AKO parang naglalaho sa tuwing kasama kita. Feeling ko nga noon ako si Sleeping Beauty na nananaginip na sya si Helen of Troy na iniwan si King Agamemnon at nakipagtanan kay Paris. But I know my prince will come to wake me from this dream.. that while I'm in a dream, I know I'm just dreaming. It was a beautiful one that I don't want to wake up but I did. I have to.

Remember the second time we met? Wala. Naalala ko lang. You asked my name sabi ko, "I'm Helen."

Tumawa ka, sabi mo pa, "The face that launched a thousand ships?"

"Yeah. That face." Sagot ko naman. Feeling.

"Then I am Paris." Sinakyan mo pa.

Kainis ka! Nainlove tuloy ako!!

Wait. Did I just wrote love?

In like lang pala. LIKE. Bold. Capital letters.

Lumalala,

thegirlinawhitehat

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