Having anxiety attacks sucks.
Having an anxiety attack on your first day at your new school sucks even more.That's the exact reason, why I'm hiding behind the school in a dark corner right now.
I'm desperately trying to get my breathing under control, because I'm expected to get to class in seven minutes and I still have to figure out where my stupid classroom is.
In all honesty, that's probably the reason why I got an anxiety attack in the first place.I mean how is anyone supposed to meet tons of new people, figure out where we have to go and also make a good impression, all at the same time?
I always had some issues with making friends.
It's just not as easy for me, as for others.
People don't tend to like me much.But simply thinking about everything I have to pay attention to, is making my anxiety rise from second to second.
I hate having to overthink everything, all the time. Like brain, just give me a damn minute of peace.
I'm trying here.Anyway, I have to get this under control right now, because arriving late for class and having then thirty pairs of eyes stare at me is not an option. I would simply die.
I try to focus on five things I can see to distract myself and slow my breaths down.
I once read an article, which talked about how this would help you to regain a calm breathing pattern, while having panic attacks or anxiety attacks.So five things I can see:
My black converse.
The dark grey brick walls of the school.
Some used cigarettes on the ground.
The sky with dark clouds, that block out all the sunlight.
And a guy leaning against a tree opposite of me, smoking a cigarette.Wait hold on.
A guy? Shit. Was he witnessing my anxiety attack the whole time?
Great.
Way to make a first impression.Deciding to not waste any more time, I grab my backpack and give him a tiny awkward wave.
Having him witnessed my little moment, makes me embarrassed.I try to remind myself that mental issues and anxiety attacks are human and that there is nothing embarrassing about them, but I hate people seeing my weaknesses.
His eyes don't leave me for the entire time I walk to the door and even when I turn around the corner, I can still feel his eyes burning holes into my back.
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Broken souls
RomanceAvery Knights is having an anxiety attack on her first day at her new school. And of course has to witness her moment of weakness non other than Caden Kingston, the school's bad boy who doesn't speak with anyone. Regardless the warnings Avery gets t...