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Chapter 4

Chapter 4

Hindi ba natin natatanong minsan kung bakit unfair?

College is way way different than high school. It's been a month since I started college. Back then I always say na kapag college na ko magseseryo na ko in my studies because this is the real shit. Pero parang it's impossible to fulfill those words. I remember what my friend told me once...

"Kung sasabihin mong magseseryo ka na in college, sabi mo lang yun. Tignan mo, it won't happen."

And damn my friend was right. Of course it's given that college is hard kase there's loads of works, shitty professors here and there. And sometimes I wonder, paanong naging professor 'tong mga 'to? May mga professor na tamad talaga meron namang talagang eager to share their knowledge. One month pa lang kami in college pero I feel like ganito na ang magiging takbo ng buong pag-aaral ko.

"Nakakainis. I feel like nagsayang lang ako ng money, time and energy going here today." Shaira says beside me while we're on our way to our campus auditorium.

Shaira was my first ever friend here sa Uni. We met during our first day. I was walking towards our building, trying to find my way towards sa room assignment when she called me.

"Ate! Ate!" I turned around to look at her. She has an angelic face. One of those mahinhin type of girl. She's about my height. Same hair length but seems like brown is not her real color. She obviously dyed it during summer because I bet their school won't also allow it. Her skin's whiter than me. I envy her a bit for that because gusto ko pang mas pumuti yung skin color ko even everyone says na maputi na ko.

"Ate, alam mo yung room 106?" She asked. I was headed for that room also, so blockmates kami.

"I just got here. I'm headed to that room also." I said and I smiled at her.

"Talaga?" She said. I nodded my head, turned around and started walking while she walk beside me. We started looking for our room.

"Here's room 103, let's got this way." I said and turned to my left. While we're approaching our room, I can see bunch of students talking loudly outside, some of them are even shouting.

"Oh! 1-C din 'to oh! Give way!" Someone shouted. She sounded like she's eager. Excited din.

As we made our way, someone grabbed me by shoulders so she could see my face and she said, "Oh ganda din ni ate oh!" Feeling ko it's a compliment because she seems very jolly about it. I don't know what to say so I just simply smiled at her at walked away following Shaira who's now leading the way, headed towards the door.

I was surprised to see na almost full na ang room. Sa may likod na part na lang may available chairs to sit. We made our way there to grab a place to sit. It's pretty shocking kase everyone's pretty hyped at parang magkakakilala na sila. What did we miss? We missed a bunch already? While me and the girl I met earlier, I wasn't able to catch her name but I'm not gonna ask her because it's awkward for me, sit there and listened to the people speaking in front. Wala pa bang professor?

I found out that the people talking in front were higher years pala but also the same section as ours, section C din pala. They're talking about the achievements their batch had gained and it's a bit of pressure for us kase they are like looking forward na we will also achieve those.

Iba't-ibang tao and iba't-ibang year ang pumapasok sa room. They're doing the RTR thing (Room To Room). There's different organizations where you can join. Some are academic and some athletic. Just the usual organizations. I still haven't planned kung what organization ba ang sasalihan ko.

Once the first class ended, walang professor na nagpakita, it's time for us to go to our next room. The girl I was with tapped me on my shoulder and asked for my number.

I wrote:

1889-03-63 (Avery)

Our first day ended and I wasn't able to catch her name. Second day came and that's when I finally catched what her name is. She texted me and asked if we could meet somewhere para sabay daw kami pumasok ng class.

And everyday since that, we're like bestfriends. Kami lang dalawa palagi yung magkasama, we don't have this tropa thing like everyone has started to form. Some mistaken us kung magkapatid daw ba kami because somehow magkamukha daw kami. Sometimes, I joke around them telling them that we're actually related and it makes me laugh seeing their "really?! What the fuck?!" faces.

I don't feel the need na magkaroon ng barkada thing. I just don't feel like I need one at the moment. It's fine with me. And I guess it's also fine with Shaira. We have each other, and we kinda like have the same attitude and outlooks in things though she's more mahinhin than me. She's like the innocent type of Avery.

We haven't joined any organizations also. Both of us actually. Sabi nila wala ka daw buhay kapag wala kang sinalihang organization. I realized it's true kase most of them talaga ngang kasali sa organizations. People says na kami daw yung 'dead kid' sa building because we're orgless. Some says na ang organization namin is "Gagorg" which made me laugh. It's fine with me and it's also fine with Shaira. We both don't dwell on it that much. May sarili kaming buhay and we don't wanna burden ourselves with another responsibility and obligation.

"Wala na namang prof na pumasok." I answered her. It pisses me off sometime kase mostly hindi pumapasok yung professors. At first dinaan lang nila kami 'pep talk' nila. Syempre we're new and we're amazed, thinking na they're somehow cool because hindi pala old ones ang mga professors, some are young talaga. Pero minsan you can't help but be pissed off kase parang walang kwenta yung day mo. Walang kwenta yung pagpasok mo kase you want to study and you want to learn pero you'll just get really pissed kase hindi pumasok yung professor.

I know we should be happy about it syempre there's no professor, free cuts, pero kung paulit-ulit mangyayari 'to, for sure maiinis ka din.

There's a seminar going on sa auditorium, some of our classmates were there to kill the remaining time. We're walking papunta doon when I felt my phone vibrated.

"Nate texted, Shai." I said as I look down to read his text on my phone.

"Really? Ano sabi?"

"He's just asking kung nasan na daw tayo."

"Eager much? Tell him we're on our way and malapit na tayo."

We continued to walk towards the auditorium when Shaira said...

"Ayy Avery, I remembered..."

"Hmmm?" I said as I turned my face to look at her. We're currently standing in line for the registration para sa mga papasok sa loob.

"Sabe ni Nate, there's a band who will perform later and cousin daw niya yung drummer doon."