Cold Feathers [Old/Unfinished]

Chapter Twenty Eight: Anxiety

|Edric's Pov|

Alright so, my boyfriend is going to get himself killed. Totally not panicking or anything..I'm definitely panicking.

What if Belos dose something bad to him? What if he gets put in jail, or killed, or even worse? What if he doesn't come back? I just started dating him, and he's already getting himself in trouble. There's so many things that could go wrong.. and I keep imagining them all.

I took a deep breath and say up. I was laying on my bed, but I decided to check pinstagram. I needed something to get my mind off everything. There wasn't much going on, besides the coven day parade stuff. Apparently somebody had kidnapped the head of the bard coven, I have a good feeling about who that was.
I sigh and put my scroll away, quickly laying back down on my bed. I don't know what to do. I'm so fucking worried. Hunter hasn't sent any type of message on if he's okay or not. I know it's sorta stupid to expect a message so soon, but I can't help it. My anxiety is just making me worried and stressed. Fuck, I almost cut my wrists open earlier without thinking. Everything is just so, crazy.. it's hard to think. Is this how Hunter feels?.. No.. probably not- fuck. If only he wasn't so stupid! If only he was like them instead...

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|TW: Slight self harm|

'Why am I doing this?..' I thought to myself, I was holding a small pocket knife I took form my dads workshop. I don't know why I wanted to hurt myself so badly. Maybe it was because I was thinking of them..? Hunter reminds me of them sometimes.. but he's not them. And I'm glad for that. But sometimes I wish he was.. then he wouldn't be doing what he's doing now. I feel so guilty for wanting that, for wanting him to be someone else. Maybe that's why I want to hurt myself so badly. Scratch that, maybe that's why I did hurt myself.

I quickly press the knife to my skin, quickly cutting myself a few times. Blood dripped down my arm. Shit, maybe that was a bad idea. I quickly use some healing magic I know to stop the bleeding. I would heal myself all the way, but I can only stop the blood. I get up and head to the bathroom, quickly grabbing the first aid kid so I can clean up. It would be easier to have Emira heal me, but I can't have her knowing what the fuck I've done. I can't have anyone knowing actually. They'd probably start questioning me a lot, and I don't want that. It's not like I haven't done this before though.

|TW Over|

I quickly bandaged myself up. I seriously need to think before I do this shit.. actually. I was thinking when I did this. What the fuck is wrong with me? I quickly put the aid kid away and went back to my room. I need a long sleeve shirt.
I went over to my closet and dug through my clothes. I ended up finding Hunter's hoodie.. I forgot he gave it to me before he left. Guess I'll wear it then..

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I was laying in bed, my mind wondering, when a crow flew through my window. It accidentally crashed into my wall, hopefully it's okay. I quickly got up and rushed over to it and picked it up. I quickly answered whoever was on the other side. "Hello?.." I said in a shaky voice. Please be Hunter, please be Hunter, pleaseeeee.

"Edric! Thank Titan you answered-" A voice said, not Hunter, but at least it's someone. "Possum? Where's Hunter?! Is he okay?! Did everything go alright?!" I said in a panic, starting to ask more and more questions. "Give me that-" I faint voice said, "Hey!" I could hear Possum say before being cut off. I was confused for a moment, before a very familiar voice started talking. "I'm alright Ed." Hunter... I quickly gave a sigh of relief. "Thank Titan.. I was worried about you.." I muttered, quickly crossing my legs. I ended up sitting down on the floor without realizing it. "I know.. I'm sorry. We're okay." Hunter replied in a soft a calming voice. I wanted to cry so badly, I'm so glad he's okay. "I'm sorry I didn't call you sooner, I was busy with Belos.." he said quietly. "What happened?! Is everything okay?" I asked in a worried tone. Hunter sighed and starting explaining everything.

                              
Word Count: 800

A/N

Wasn't sure if I should've added the sh bit, but I felt needed. Mostly because it gave a bit of info on who Edric cried over during the beginning of this all.