New life

Difficult discussions and decisions

Alex's car

Miracle walks out to the car park and looks around for Alex's car to see if he's there when suddenly he pulls up in front of her.

Al: Hey princess how was your day?
Mira: Can we please go eat because I'm hungry and then we can talk at home, there are things we need to discuss and things you need to hear. Is that ok?
Al: Of course that's fine, let's go get some food and we can eat when we get back to the house.
Mira: Thank you Alex.
Al: So Mira what do you fancy to eat?
Mira: Can we please get macaroni cheese and chicken nuggets from the restaurant we ate at before?
Al: That sounds like a plan let me preorder it so it's ready for us to collect when we get there.

Time skip to Miracle's house

Mira: How was your day today?
Al: It was bit hectic but I got everything finished on time, so that I could come collect my pretty princess on time from school, so we could eat lunch together and have some alone time together. How was your day you seemed to be a bit late out of Nicole's class?
Mira: Well as you know I asked you a few questions this morning and as I said I had some questions I needed to ask Nicole also.
Al: Ok and how did it go?
Mira: It's probably best I just play the conversation to you that I recorded on my phone , because I wanted to be able to come back and play it in case I forgot an answer I was given.
Al: Ok well play the recording.

Pulls out phone and starts recording.

(Here is the conversation again just in case you forgot what they discussed)
Mira: I have some questions and I would like if you could be completely honest with me as I want it just to be us without any interference from Alex.
Nic: Of course Miracle I will answer as honestly as I can.
Mira: Are you ok with me being female and your little?
Nic: Initially I did want a male little but Alex said no and I wasn't to keen on the idea of having a female little, but after our question time we had I was more comfortable with the idea as you were willing to try things that I wanted.
Mira: If you do get pregnant are you 1 still going to want a little in general, 2 want to breastfeed both the little and the newborn baby?
Nic: If I'm being honest I don't know for both of those questions as I don't know how it will affect our dynamic and our day to day lives.
Mira: If we were together on a permanent basis would you be ok with Alex having a baby with me at some point?
Nic: Honestly if I wasn't able to have a child with him I would prefer that you didn't either as I would feel like I wasn't enough and that you could take my husband away from me.
Mira: Thank you for being honest with me, I best get going as Alex is waiting for me.
Nic: I will see you later as I wanted to ask you to do something this weekend and thought we could plan it if that's ok.
Mira: That sounds good see you later.

Stops recording and then looks at Alex to see his reaction.

Mira: As you can see from the conversation between us I'm kind of having some serious doubts about whether this dynamic between the three of us will work.
Al: I can see why you would have some concerns especially when you asked if you were temporary and she said you weren't but then completely went back on that and said if a baby was in the picture she's not sure it would work for her anymore. Well let me explain why me and Nicole have time away from one another and then go from there, how does that sound?
Mira: If you are ok with sharing that then I am willing to listen.

Alex's PoV
Flashback six months ago
I was away on a business trip but finished early and couldn't wait to spend some alone time with Nicole as I've been so busy with work recently trying to complete a massive project that set us up for being able to cut my days in half and be able to really look into having a little like we had discussed. Nicole told me that she would have her friend over with her little boy and I was hoping that I would get home and spend some time with them then get her to myself. I walk in the front door and no one is around but I see both there cars here and thought maybe they're in the backyard. I will go grab a quick shower and then go out and find them. So I headed to mine and Nicole's room and as I got closer I heard moaning and groaning and begging for more and wondered what the hell was going on. I walked straight into our room to find Nicole eating out her friend while being fucked hard by her little. I couldn't believe it so I just stood there to ensure I was not dreaming when suddenly Nicole screamed what the fuck? I looked at her and my anger was so bad I screamed and said what the fuck are you joking me right now your the one cheating with your friend and her little and you have the cheek to ask me what the fuck. I turned to her friend and her little and told them both to get the fuck out of my house and never come back and Nicole went to contradict it when I gave her a look that said I dare you and your gone with them with nothing. She kept her mouth shut as she knows I have cctv cameras in every room as a safety measure where I can and will burn off the proof she's cheated, and then I will look further back to see if it's happened before and burn off those times also, which I will do anyway. I waited for them to leave and told her to go scrub herself because I couldn't even look at her without wanting to lash out and decided to go for a walk around the backyard to try and calm down after taking all the footage from the cctv of her cheating and putting it in a place she wouldn't be able to access ever. After my walk I walk into the kitchen from the backyard and get something to drink and walk through to the lounge where she was sat waiting. I looked at her and just asked why? She said it's because she wants a little boy and knew I would never go for it so thought why not try him as my friend wanted to have a threesome with another female and I didn't think you'd be home for a few more days. So because I don't want a male little in our relationship you think it's acceptable to have an affair with not just one person but two because it's what you and your friend wanted to do, and I wasn't meant to be home so it's my fault you got caught cheating is that what your saying? Oh and the fact that we have been trying for a baby for the last six months and he was barebacking you is completely ok as well right. So not only did you cheat but you also risked getting pregnant by him also, is that what you wanted? You could just leave I'm not stopping you from leaving and right now I'm not sure I even want to be with you anyway because I apparently can't trust you. She looked at me with complete shock on her face and said of course I didn't want to get pregnant by him but I was so into it that I forgot and I'm not saying it's your fault it just would of been nice to know you were coming home early that's all. Yeah so you could hide the cheating and you forgot we were trying for a baby glad to know that the woman who has been pushing me to have a baby for so long suddenly forgets so she can get fucked by some other dude, maybe the baby should be put on hold till you can decide if our relationship is what you want or if you'd rather fuck other guys and I think you should stay somewhere else. No please don't make me leave I will stay in another room let's just have some time away from each other in separate parts of the house and come together in a week please. You better get checked your not pregnant because 1 I ain't raising some other guys baby and 2 I don't know if I could stay with you if you were pregnant with his baby and I would take everything because I'm not being punished for being a supportive husband and allowing you to be at home all day while I make sure I could provide for us and a baby and a potential little of ours. She turns to me and says I will do anything you want, I don't want to lose you. Maybe you should of thought about that before you allowed your friends little to stick his dick in you and you had sex with your friend. She started crying and I just walked away there was nothing but rage inside of me fighting to get out so I went to what was meant to be our room and grabbed my stuff that I would need for a while because I wasn't sure a week would be enough time after what she's done to me. I leave the room and go to the opposite side of the house and set up a spare room for myself and start buying stuff online to make it my own.
A week later Nicole comes to me and asks if we can talk I decide it's better to get it over with than prolong it. I follow her down to the living room and ask her what she wants. She looks at me and says I'm not pregnant I have had blood tests done and my period just started yesterday. I look at her and say ok your not pregnant that doesn't change the fact you cheated with two other people. She says I know that I'm just trying to work things out after I messed up. No messing up is doing something like forgetting to put the right address on something not cheating with two people. You royally fucked up and now our relationship is in the balance because of it, as I'm not sure that I can trust you and the dynamic we're in is all about trust or did you forget that fact Nicole. Nicole looks at me and stares right into my eyes and says no I haven't forgotten that at all. I think you have otherwise you would never have cheated and tried to condone it by saying oh you weren't meant to be home for a few more days. I am so sorry Alex can we try and maybe start with a vanilla relationship and go from there because I realise that I did royally fuck up but I think we need to sit down and really discuss what we want if we are to go forward from here. I look at her at say I have a list of wants and if you aren't able to accept them we may as well end things here.
Here is my list :-
* I want a female little
* I want time away in my own room a few times a week for a break for both of us, which you can ask me to stay in also if you need a break from us.
* I want you to go back to work, since I am now able to be home from lunch onwards, I will be able to take the lead role of care for our potential little.
* If and when we do get a little whether we have a child or not, if the connection is right and works out with them being added to our dynamic, I want a child with them.
* If you ever cheat with anyone that is not in our dynamic (if we have a little she will be included in our dynamic), you will automatically pack your things and leave and not ask for anything and just accept the divorce papers, if a child is involved I will request a dna test to be completed before providing for the child or children.
This is a legal document that I will require you to sign if you are wanting to have us start afresh and try and build up to what we had before this chapter has happened. She looks at the document and nods her head in agreement and signs the document.

Flashback is over.

Mira: I know you said she signed that document but to me it seems like she now doesn't think it's relevant.
Al: I am also thinking that but I carry that document everywhere I go, so you have nothing to worry about Mira we will have our dynamic the way we want it and if she doesn't then she knows she can leave.
Mira: But can't she point out that you are cheating, even if it's not in the physical way currently, it could be classed as cheating emotionally.
Al: I see where you are going with this but Mira I need you to understand that after she cheated, I haven't been able to completely get over it and the whole baby thing is something she's trying to do in hopes that it will fix everything but if I'm honest I'm worried it will just put a bigger strain on our relationship. That's why I was hoping to delay it by doing the tests and trying to try and concentrate on our new potential relationship with you.
Mira: But after everything she has said I'm not sure I will be able to even consider being in this dynamic with you both especially after what happened the other night on top of this.
Al: Can you please just give us a chance? I know I screwed up with what I did after what she said but I want to prove to you that I'm not that person and I will do anything to prove that and I hope that you will at least try to give Nicole a chance at this dynamic with all of us and if it doesn't work we can then go from there. Would you be willing to do that?
Mira: Ok I will try but it's going to take a lot of time to be able to trust either of you and it's going to take even more time to feel like I can warm towards Nicole.
Al: That's all I ask Mira. Now how about you and I have some nice cuddle time before Nicole arrives later.
Mira: Ok I would like that, can we watch a movie while we cuddle.
Al: Of course we can princess.

Alex then turns on encanto for Miracle to watch, and cuddled up together underneath a blanket.

Alex's thoughts :- I am sat here holding Mira while she watches encanto and all I can think about is the conversation she had with Nicole and how I'm terrified that she will not want to be in this dynamic. I have grown so attached to her that I will be devastated if she leaves me and I know I'm married to Nicole but I feel so connected to Mira and when she called me daddy it was one of the best moments of my life but then I royally screwed up by fucking Nicole instead of attending to my princess. I just hope she will continue to give us a chance and maybe get comfortable again with us both and we can move forward even if I have to have a conversation with Nicole about the document and putting the trying for a baby on hold and telling her how I feel it will put a strain on our relationship when we are still trying to get back to our Dom and sub dynamic we were in before she cheated.

Nicole's PoV

I am sat in my office thinking about the questions Miracle asked and realised that maybe some of the answers I gave her may make her feel like she's not really wanted and wonder what I can do to try and rectify what I have done with this conversation.
Phone dings with text

Al:- We need to have a conversation about us trying for a baby and about the document you signed. I have told Miracle about what has happened in our relationship so she knows everything.
Nic:- Ok what do you want to say, and I understand why you would tell her what we are going through I just wish I was there so we could have spoken about it together.
Al:- I feel like we are trying to so hard for a baby that all it will do is put a bigger strain on our relationship as we haven't even got back to our Dom/sub dynamic completely.
Nic:- Then maybe we should put a hold on our potential relationship with Miracle as our little as well then.
Al:- I can't do that because I feel such a strong connection with her, especially after she called me daddy and I know that I royally screwed up when I didn't deal with her and just had sex with you. But I just feel maybe we should work on this dynamic of the 3 of us and then once we are in a more stable place for all of us we can think about having babies. I'm not saying we won't still get tested and that, but I just think we should get the answers from the tests and then bench it for a while.
Nic:- Maybe you are right, I do feel like I need to connect with Miracle more as she has been so accommodating toward me even after what I said and I know that you probably know about the conversation she and I had today, and I feel I may have made things worse for myself.
Al:- She is willing to give us a chance even though she does have doubts, especially after your conversation today as your contradicted what you said about her not being temporary.
Nic:- Ok well I will be over later as I wanted to plan a day trip over the weekend for the 3 of us, and hopefully I will be actually be able to prove that I'm not just using her like she thinks I am probably am from our conversation.
Al:- Ok see you later, love you.
Nic:- love you to.