WALLFLOWER // B.E

eighteen

juniper

the next morning, i was woken up to my alarm for school going off. the first thing i noticed was the weight on top of me. then, i noticed the rain pouring outside.

at some point during the night, billie had moved and laid completely on top of me. her arms were wrapped around my waist, and her face was buried into my neck. her legs were tangled with mine.

i swear, she does not know what personal space is when she's sleepy.

the longer my alarm went off, the more i could feel billie's face scrunch up against my neck. i reached over, and i turned it off. billie relaxed again, and she continued to sleep peacefully.

i just laid there, frozen, and not knowing what to do. i needed to get up, but i didn't know how to go about moving her off of me.

i let out a sigh, and i glanced down at her. she was still sleeping soundly.

you know, holding her like this, is making me realize how small she actually is.

that being said... she's a big baby.

my door opened, and i looked over it at. my eyes widened. grandma stood there, and she stared at me and billie for a few seconds. she then shook her head with a small smile, and she looked at me.

"the school called; it's out for the day, due to the weather," she told me.

one thing about living here, is that they'll cancel school if it just rains a little too hard.

"okay," i gave a small nod.

she glanced at billie again, then back at me. "have fun," she said before she stepped back out of the room. i could feel my face flush as i stared at where she stood just a few seconds ago.

what does she even mean by that?

billie shifted a bit, and her grip around my waist tightened slightly. she buried her head further into my neck, to the point where her lips were practically pressed against it. i swallowed as i felt my face flush even more.

how the hell am i supposed to go back to sleep now?

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somehow, i had managed to fall asleep. a few hours later though, i was woken up again. this time, it was due to billie waking up.

billie shifted a bit as she yawned. her hand moved to rest on my side, and her thumb started to gently rub it. i froze up.

"you okay?" she rasped.

oh my god.

her sleep voice is so— holy shit.

i've heard it before, but still.

"mhm," i hummed.

she hummed too. despite knowing i'm awake, her thumb still continued to rub my side. she snuggled closer to me.

how is she so calm about being so close like this? i'm freaking out.

"junie?" she questioned softly.

"hm?"

"hold me. you're stiff as a damn board right now, with yours arms just at your side and shit," she teased. "i'ma need you to hold me, mama; that's how cuddling works."

"you know, a 'please' wouldn't hurt you," i huffed, though my face was starting to flush.

i hate how easily she can make me blush.