I gaze up at stars that have watched
the entirety of human history unfold.That have led sailors and watched over
travelers and cast an immortal thrall over us.And i feel incredibly small. I am perched upon
a speck of dust, a proton to an atom.The stars have seen billions of lives,
and they will see billions more.And all i want is to live forever, to stare
endlessly into them until i become the sky.Three months ago, all i wanted was
to sink into the earth.To vanish beneath her soil and leave nothing
behind but traces of memory evaporating like bitter cigarette smoke.I would have been content to never see the stars again.
But now I cannot stare at them enough, now i have watched
twelve streaks of light dart across the sky.Now i have perched on my little mote of dust and
become lost in the vastness of the universe.Now i understand why i didn't die all those months ago