oh god so it's been a minute
so some new stuff has come up so i'm gonna spill it all over this one chapter
alright here goes
i'm addicted to pinterest
i've been reading a concerning amount of wattpad stories
i kinda wanna die
i feel like when i'm with my friends my personality isn't fake, my smile and joy is real but when i'm with my family i feel smad, moody, solitary, tired etc. like- nani the fuck??
oh i also have grown a slight love for volleyball sometimes my sister and brother let me practice with them (mostly my brother).
i'm trying to be more creative and not glues to my phone or computer/laptop all day
I have also discovered that i tend to get extremely sleepy when a movie is playing so movie theatres and movie night is a big no for me
uhmm the bottom of my palms keep getting really dry and starting to hurt
i know how to make my own lip scrub
i am not as afraid of the dark now as i was before
wednesday addams <3333333333
i still stress over time and have allegrophobia (fear of being late)
dementophobia won't go away
got a lil bit of somniphobia
so update on the whole friend drama
so ava, vivien and their lil bitch group said i was being really rude because at that time i was playfully teasing and pretty loud so when i would make a small comment, they'd take it personally and say that i was being rude to them.
eventually, they "had enough" and broke the friendship off. ngl i do miss vivien and this happened like 6 months ago. i only stopped feeling bad and regretting every little thing i did and didnt do like 3 months ago. it was a really dark time
that was also the time when i attempted sewer slide and did cv++!ng
thankfully, my mom helped me get through it and she told me she knows how passionate i get about the smallest things
so i do get really passionate and care a lot and have really intense feelings for things people mark off as a waste of time because i have nothing else to really care about and that causes me to get hurt most.
oh yeah my skin gets really dry (but it only feels dry on my hands) and i get itchy as fuck and it's fucking terrible
anyways that's it for now so thanks!
-mish (kaurella)
