Come what may

so you've been reading...

Sometimes I get loud
and say things without thinking, without any filter.
Things like 'you know I have been writing all along right?'
Guess those writing days are the moments I get the quietest...
I get quiet because my thoughts are taking over,
because I need to vent, to think,
to be melodramatic and I write because I have been overthinking.
My dear,
I have been writing these notes for over almost a year and it was never my intention for you to read them in, like what, two days?
Can't imagine what you must have felt,
what you must have thought and what kind of emotions must have been going through you...
If you want I will provide answers,
if you feel like I need to explain a few of them then I will.
I know that my writings can be quite heavy on the heart or that they don't always make sence...
I am aware that it might not always seem perfect but remember that it's just a fase, a moment, a writing.
But babe... If I did hurt you somehow, by something I wrote then you have to say something because that is something I just need to know...
And I do realize that I am asking more of you than I can give in return,
I know.
I just hope that you know that I am trying, I really am but I'm just not much of a talker. I am a writer...