Exile

Chapter 5

Even though my dad was right, that Draco was the best and logical option, here I was staring at a redhead that was slurping his morning tea. 

"If you are going to drool at least do it to the side where you aren't near my food," Ron said. He was sitting next to me while Granger was across from him and Harry across from me. 

"I am not drooling," I turn, "Ugh when did life have to get so complicated." Groaning, while i stuff a grape in my mouth. 

"What if, you just date them both?" Ron turned to me, face full of food. 

"I don't know what to be more concerned about." I smile and ruffle his hair, "Uh but I'll just catch up with you guys at potions?" 

"You okay?" Hermione rubs my hand. 

"Great.  I just need to take a walk before class." she nods. 

As i was walking around the castle I hear footsteps pacing towards me, I was expecting to see Draco because I thought the only person who could walk as fast as that would be him. To my surprise, not really, it was Fred. 

"Y/n!" I turn to face him, "can," pant, "we," pant, "please," pant, "talk?"

"You didn't have to sprint to talk to me, we were literally sitting at the same table Fred." I crossed my arms.

"Right, uh, okay I just wanted to say sorry." He stood up, "I honestly don't know why I was acting like that." 

"So it has nothing to do with the fact that I am dating Draco?" I question. 

"I- I don't know y/n. It's up to you but for the first time in a long time I know what, who, I want." He looked from my eyes to my lips.

"I am not an option Fred." 

"Fine, then you're who I need." 

" I have a boyfriend," His face dropped. 

"There's no way that you guys are actually together." He scoffed. 

"You were doing so good," I turn and roll my eyes. 

"What's that supposed to mean I thought you had a boyfriend." that set me off I turn and walk to him, my wand touching his throat, this didn't effect him because his smirk was plastered proudly across his face. 

"I do, have a boyfriend. What i meant- sorry what you failed to understand was that I meant I was actually about to forgive you." I lowered my wand, "I guess even as a friend I don't matter," 

"No, I-" he paused and held my and before I could turn, " I would rather stay friends than stay arguing with you. I mean, cmon y/n this is the longest we have went not talking to each other." 

"Hey, y/n. Is everything okay here?" I felt an arm wrap around my shoulder. Draco.

"Hey babe, everything is fine. Let's go." I smiled at Fred, a knowing smile. 

"Y/n..." I didn't turn around. Because if I turned around, I wouldn't go back. I am doing so well, my life is going kind of the way I want it to, but in this moment I would be lying if I didn't want to turn around. I would be lying if I didn't want to turn around. I would be lying if I didn't want to turn around and kiss him with all the power vested in me. 

But I did not.  I don't know why I didn't maybe it was because Draco was dragging me out, probably because he know what I wanted to do, but I also wanted to stay here. Happy in Draco's hand. Black was right, if I chose Fred I was just falling blindly into a highly toxic relationship. Even if I dated Fred, I know a part of my would be longing for Draco. Hell, did I even still like Fred? Or the idea that I could finally be in a relationship with my first love. That. Definitely that.