Secret admirer || Pansmione || texting/pov

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08:32

Echidna: so I looked up this "Echidna" person in the library yesterday
Read: 08:35

You: really?
You: you went into the library?

Echidna: yes— what's that supposed to mean?😭

You: Didn't think you'd step foot in there

Echidna: ...
Echidna: mean😭😭

Echidna: so anyways
Echidna: she's a monster???

You: I suppose

Echidna: You named me after a monster???😭😭

You: well, I would've chosen Medusa, but she's associated with sexual assault so I decided not to

Echidna: alright that's fair
Echidna: so what are you up to today?
Echidna: it's Saturday, so Hogsmeade?

You: yeah

Echidna: got a date already? ;)

You: I have plans

Echidna: like?

You: just meeting up with some friends

Echidna: oh alright

You: are you going?

Echidna: probably
Read: 08:39

Echidna: are you alright?

You: yes, why?

Echidna: idk you seem off. Did something happen?

You: no, I'm okay
You: I've just got a lot on my mind
You: sorry for being dry hahah

Echidna: that's okay! I just want you to feel good

You: thanks
You: actually, I could use someone to talk to

Echidna: I'm here :))

You: remember when I told you I'd never date Ron?

Echidna: yeah, what about it?

You: I have been rethinking that a lot

Echidna: really

You: I mean- i thought that if I had to choose anyone, it'd be Ron
You: and maybe there's just nothing more than that

Echidna: ..you thought?

You: last night we were up in his dorm
You: and he kissed me
Read: 08:44

08:45
Echidna: oh
Echidna: wow
Echidna: and?

You: it felt wrong
You: like really, really wrong
You: after I left I felt like crying and throwing up

Echidna: why?

You: I don't know
You: maybe because I've known him for so long?

Echidna: maybe
Echidna: or ur gay :3💅🥰

You: I'm not gay🙄
You: but it is confusing
You: it means there is supposed to be something more
You: but I've never had that

Echidna: I know you're not gay, but hear me out
Echidna: before I figured everything out, I dated boys
Echidna: I've kissed boys, I've fucked one
Echidna: it wasn't good💀💀
Echidna: it felt really wrong, I couldn't get into it
Echidna: and I thought it had something to do with my age, because I was fairly young, but it didn't
Echidna: my first kiss with a girl changed everything. it felt so much better than kissing my boyfriend.
Echidna: she was soft, tender and her lips on mine felt really good
Echidna: she was almost everything that he lacked and I needed, almost.
Echidna: I didn't love her like that. We lacked a spark
Echidna: it was more than enough to realize my gayness though😭
Echidna: I think that what you experienced is similar to what I did, I'm not saying you should try out lesbianism, but Weasley isn't for you.