Secret admirer || Pansmione || texting/pov

17

There, leaning against the shelves, were Hermione and Ron Weasley, making out. Weasley's hands roamed under Hermione's shirt, while Hermione's rested on his neck. It was a disgusting sight to see, but I may be biased.

A wave of jealousy hit me. I should be the one she's kissing, but apparently it's so important to her that her partners are boys. If I were a boy, I'd have her on my arm already, and I'd rub it in both the Weasley's faces as much as I possibly could.

"I'm so glad you changed your mind." Weasley said with a voice that could be described as a failed whisper. They has paused sucking face and Weasley's hand was on Hermione's jaw now. He smiled, and Hermione gave an obviously fake grin in return. Then, he pulled her in to continue their makeout session.

I realized I'd been watching people kissing for over a minute, and walked away. How could he have missed that fake grin? She obviously doesn't want to be there with him and he's too much of an idiot to notice! I fastened my pace when I reached the exit. She doesn't want to kiss him. She's just trying to prove something to herself.

I hurried down the stairs. Which means that she has something to prove. I paused, realizing what this meant. She's gay. I let out a breath and held a hand through my hair. She's gay, but she doesn't want to be. Without thinking about it too much, my feet started to move again.

I nearly ran into my dorm and grabbed my phone.

20:14
You: we need to talk.

20:56
Hermione <3: oh?
Hermione <3: that sounds ominous?

You: I saw you in the library
You: with Weasley
Seen: 20:57

20:58
Hermione <3: you were watching me?
Hermione <3: What, did you follow me there too?

You: no
You: I was just putting back some books and I saw you two sucking face

Hermione <3: right.
Hermione <3: so?

You: so??
You: you hated kissing him!
You: you said you felt like crying and throwing up after
You: that doesn't seem like an experience worth repeating

Hermione <3: I was just overreacting before

You: no you weren't

Hermione <3: yes I was.
Hermione <3: it's really not that bad

You: it's supposed to be good

Hermione <3: whatever

You: you're just using that ginger idiot to prove to yourself you're not gay
Seen: 21:01

21:02
Hermione <3: don't call him an idiot
Hermione <3: and I'm not like you
Hermione <3: I'm not a disgusting fag
Hermione <3: and I have exactly nothing to prove
Hermione <3: you're just throwing me off, because you're into me

You: you know I'd never do that to you, Hermione

Hermione <3: I'm pretty sure that suits your character.

You: look, this is an important crossroad for you
You: if you decide to date Weasley, you'll never be happy

Hermione <3: wow.
Hermione <3: I knew I should've blocked you from the start.

You: you know I'm telling you the truth
You: you don't want to end up like me
You: stuck in a loveless marriage
You: tell me honestly. Did you enjoy kissing him?
You: don't lie to yourself, Hermione. You don't want this.

Hermione <3: leave me alone.

Hermione <3 has blocked you