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"Ok"
He was still talking about whatever he was talking about as I absentmindedly continued trying to curl this last section of my wig which didn't want to lay the way I needed it to. We were already running late as is.
"You not even listening Michelle"
I slanted my eyes and put the curling iron down staring at him " the only thing you doing right now is ranting on about how I'm making us late. But I been told you to go without me and you wouldn't so what's the problem?"
He stared at me without saying a word then just walked away somewhere else in my apartment. I sighed as I went back to what I was doing
Lately that's all Nasir and I do; argue and fight. Over the dumbest shit too. Just the other day we got in an argument about who was going to drive the kids to school.
We are drained
We always together but spend no time together just the two of us.
If not helping Mikey and Megan with the triplets it's helping with the other kids or work. So as Miracle is getting better and Megan is finally sleeping full nights and her mother retiring from work who will help full time it eases some time up for me and my man my man my man
But my man getting on the last nerve I got
So today we going out to dinner just the two of us
I looked myself in the mirror and was happy with what I had on and the way my hair was curled finally
" you look beautiful." I stared at him through the mirror as he drank me in
" thankyou. You clean up nice yourself"
"I'm done I'm about to just put my shoes on" I sat on the side of the tub slipping on my heels. Straightening myself up as I finished
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I grabbed my bag and keys off the front counter and turned the light off.
He kissed my cheek as we made our way out of the apartment locking up and to the Parking garage. We didn't speak much during the car ride to the restaurant just with music playing
I looked out the window feeling his hands rest on my exposed thighs " talk to me baby"
I sighed turning slight towards him " I feel like all we do is fight now, we don't do date nights, forget daily check ins, stopped doing those random things I love when we do. I love my twin and bestfriend and it takes a village raising a child and she has three now + her bonus kids she just got
And imma help anyway I can but it's hard balancing that, work, and trying to squeeze in time for us. And I hate that I have to say " squeeze in" cause that shouldn't even be the case.
"It's hard right now but I promise you things are going to get better" he reassured me as pulled into the parking lot of the restaurant.
He came around to open my door and I stepped out as we walked into the restaurant hand in hand.
"Table for Morgan"
The hostess guided us to our seats as he held my chair out for me to sit then proceeded to sit in his own
He held my hand after our waiter took our drink orders " do you remember our first date?"
I nodded smiling " you took me to a fair. I was nervous as hell"
The look of shock on his face made me laugh " Chelle? You remembering stuff?"
"Just some details have been popping up recently in my head. How you tried to get me jealous with that girl on your lap in the cafe in college, how you use to help cook taco Tuesday's with me and my family, our trip to the beach, and small other details. I know I was happy with you all in my presence but it's like I can't feel it that warmth. I don't even know if I'm making sense.
I don't know if what I feel for you now is the same as what I felt for you back then."
he nodded taking my hands and kissing the inside of my palms "I get it. So we'll make new memories together and create a new warmth."
I smiled and nodded as I stared at him.
We ordered our food, talked about were our relationship is going, the kids, our families, and our careers. I always loved talking with Nasir even when he pisses me off he's the only person I love talking to even when I'm mad.
At the end he paid and we took a walk downtown. the breeze was nice and the company was wonderful. I felt relaxed and at ease.
We intertwined our hands as we walked listening to music playing out of a small radio on a porch where he spun me around and we started dancing in the middle of the sidewalk as people past us
"People are staring Nas" I told him
"So let them watch two people dance who cares" I laid my head on his chest as we swayed to the music and danced like no one was watching.
His voice was soft as he spoke again "I know this isn't the best time. And we have only just started with us again but I can't hold this in. I love you Michelle"
I froze as he continued to sway us. My head was pounding hearing what he said like it's heard it before and was trying to remember "huh?"
He move slightly back making me stare up at him as I wince from the pain happening all of a sudden " I love you Michelle Wright. I want only you."
I smiled because my heart felt warm like these words wasn't new coming from him. I didn't reciprocate those same feelings even though my mind was telling me too but my mouth remained shut and a sharp pain happened again
This time making my eyes shutter close seeing all black _________________________________________ And just when Chelle was starting to remember the love of her life __________________________________________
